ForevaXena's FanFic . . .
After Vietnam
by Nyxie
© 2001 Nyxie
Disclaimers: I own them,
just not who they resemble. Know that!
Love/Sex: Yes they are
in love! Yes they have sex! Dude, seriously, love and sex go together, so why
wouldn’t they? But I’ll let you know they’re lesbians so there are two
women having sex. Good sex. So just remember that if you aren’t 18 then go
away cos you’re not old enough. If this kinda love is not legal where you give
then move! “Trying to write sex? LOL
....... just add a lot of "wet" .... "moist" ....
"open" ..... "spreading" ...... "ramming" ....
"thrusting" .... and there you have a half decent scene.”
"…as
she peeled the potato she couldn't help noticing how shapely the peeler was ...
and how interesting it would be to have a little 'experiment' ...."
Dude!!
Some of the potato peelers I've come in contact with are dangerous! Next to a
cheese grater that’s something I'd NEVER EVER stick up there! LOL
Hey,
I didn't say anything about sticking one anywhere! (such is the joy of implying
as a valuable writing tool ...... you can always disclaim any notion! And you
can quote me on that)
Language/ Violence: Yes
and Yes. It’s a war story and it ain’t pretty. There’s a bit of graphic
violence so if you’re sensitive then don’t go past here.
Thanks: To the one and
only Nat Natalie says -
"Well, this girl sure knows how to write porn. Reminds me of that time when
I ate a Mars bar in front of a nature documentary ..." Ya
freakin’ sicko! Thanks for doin the edit work on this!
PROLOGUE:
Every
hero should have to have a glorious, triumphant homecoming. Sharon Randolph
would not be gifted with that homecoming. She was flown home six and one half
months into her tour and discharged from the army. What could they do with a
cripple? Her family stood waiting to greet her. Derek Randolph expecting the
mother that left him, Jessie Randolph wasn’t sure what to expect.
*****
“Jessie!?
Jessie, over here!” Sonni called to her wife as she limped out of the airplane
terminal. She found the nearest seat to rest in.
Jessie smiled. Excitement was
welling up inside of her. She could hear Sonni calling, and she now knew that
her prayers were answered. She pushed the stroller carrying their two babies
toward the woman she had missed for so long.
Derek ran ahead of her and was
the first to notice Sonni sitting down. “Mommy! You came home!” He climbed
into her lap.
Sonni wrapped her arms around
him and kissed his forehead. She replied, “Yes I did…I missed you so
much.”
Jessie looked down at the woman
she loved and was immediately concerned. Derek climbed out of her lap and
allowed Sonni to get up. With much effort she succeeded and pulled Jessie close
to her. “I’m home baby, and I promise I’m never leaving you again.” She
ran her fingers through Jessie’s sun bleached hair. She pulled her head back
and looked into the emerald eyes of her wife and smiled. She was finally home.
Jessie gazed back and placed a
lingering kiss on her lips. “You’re home.” She ran her fingers over some
of the scars on Sonni’s cheeks and neck. “Never again…” she whispered.
Sonni rested her head on
Jessie’s shoulder and glanced to Derek and the two blonde babies beside him.
“They’re beautiful, Jess.”
Jessie let go and took
Sonni’s hand. She led her over to their newest family members and watched as
Sonni slowly lifted Connor into her arms. “My little girl…” Jessie lifted
Brent out of the carriage and placed him in Sonni’s other arm. “My little
boy.”
“Yes…” Jessie repeated as
she pulled Derek into her arms.
*****
ONE:
SECTION A:
Their ride home much passed in silence, barring Derek's chattering. The
rest of the day Jessie had spent taking care of the children and wondering what
was going through Sonni’s head. She couldn’t tell, and she wasn’t sure if
she wanted to know what Sonni was thinking. She spent countless hours sitting in
her armchair gazing into space and had yet to take off her uniform. Finally,
their children were asleep, and Jessie thought it would be best to talk a little
bit.
“Ready for bed?” Jessie
asked as she placed the palm of her hand against Sonni’s cheek.
Sonni jumped at the contact;
she looked up at Jessie and bit her lower lip. “I’d really like a bath.”
She replied.
“Want me to start running the
water?” Jessie asked softly.
Sonni lowered her head. She
asked, “Will you join me?” She rubbed her almost bald, head.
“Of course.”
Jessie replied as she sat down on the arm of the chair. She asked, “Why
wouldn’t I?”
Sonni was silent for what
seemed like an eternity and finally answered. “Because I’m ugly.” She
replied.
“You’re beautiful…”
Jessie said. She was shocked by the statement and didn’t quite know where it
came from.
“My face, my arms…my
leg.” She said. She looked at Jessie, “My soul…they’re all ugly.”
“What are you talking
about?” Jessie asked.
Sonni simply looked at her and
unbuttoned her shirt. She pulled it off, exposing scars all over her arms. Next
she pulled up her pant leg and revealed that the leg that once occupied the
space had been removed. The only thing left was her thigh and a titanium rod.
She said quietly, “Top of the line…it even has a spring action foot so I can
walk easier.”
Jessie moved off of the arm and
sank into her wife’s lap. Wrapping her arms around Sonni’s neck, she gently
placed kisses all over her face. “You didn’t tell me you lost your leg…you
should have, but I don’t care that it’s not there. You’re still the most
beautiful woman I have ever come across, and not even scars and missing limbs
will change that.” She realized that as soon as the
statement had poured from her mouth, it was a lie. She couldn’t help feeling a
little nauseous when she saw the rod that was Sonni’s leg. She couldn’t help
feeling … disappointment; that was it. Disappointment that her wife was no
longer whole in body. And what of her mind? Tears were rolling down her
cheeks and inside she was just a little bit angry that Sonni hadn’t mentioned
it sooner. Then again, she knew Sonni well enough to know that she did things
for a reason.
Sonni allowed herself to relax
and pulled Jessie closer to her. She whispered, “I have a promise to keep,
Jess.”
“Yes you do.” Jessie
replied.
*****
SECTION B:
Sonni lay back against the pillows against the headboard of her bed. Her
arms tightened around Jess, who was in front of her. They’d just finished
their bath and were currently enjoying the first skin-to-skin contact they’d
shared since the night before she left. She thought,
“How do I tell her about the things I’ve done. If I do, will she love me
anymore? I don’t love me anymore! How can I expect her to?” Her body
tensed and began to tremble. Tears flooded from her eyes as she attempted to
choke back the sobs aching to come out.
Jessie, who had been running
her hand over what was left of her wife’s leg managed to roll over; she
straddled Sonni’s lap and wrapped her arms around her. “Hey…” she said.
Sonni pushed her backward with
more power than she’d anticipated. “Get away from me!” She yelled. She
watched as Jessie practically flew off of her. “Just stay away from me, Jess,
or you’ll get hurt!”
“Sonni?!” Jessie asked. Her
voice filled with concern. She crawled back up and held onto Sonni’s wrists.
“Sonni…”
Sonni had calmed down a little
bit by now. Realizing that Jessie’s eyes reflected nothing other than love she
began to sob again. “Don’t leave me, Jessie, I’m so sorry…I didn’t
mean it, I didn’t want to, I had to and I don’t want you to hate me for what
I did because I love you so much and I don’t want to see you leave me, and I
don’t want to be free from you, just everything I had to do!” Her arms
wrapped around Jessie again and held on tightly.
“You’ll never be free from
me, Sonni. Come on, baby. Calm down and go to sleep…” Jessie pleaded.
“We’ll talk tomorrow, right now you just need to go to sleep.”
“Hold me?” Sonni sobbed
into Jessie’s neck. “Please hold me, Jess? I don’t wanna sleep alone.”
Jessie nodded and opened her
arms as she lay down. Sonni looked at her and rolled over onto her stomach.
Resting her head on Jessie’s shoulder, she let her hands trail over her
wife’s skin. She needed to feel that she was there with her. “I love
you…” she whispered as she fell asleep.
“I love you…” Jessie
reassured as her hands rested on Sonni’s head and lower back. “I always
will…”
*****
SECTION C:
Jessie opened her eyes and noticed that Sonni was missing. The soft buzz
of the baby monitor was enough to let her know that Connor and Brent were
asleep. She pulled on a pair of Sonni’s boxers and her favorite T-shirt, then
made her way down the hall to Derek’s room. She found him asleep and sucking
his thumb. “Where are you, Sharon?”
she thought.
Jessie found herself following
a trail of displaced tables and overturned flowerpots. She ended up in the
kitchen, figuring that Sonni had used them for support. She glanced at her wife
who was sitting at the table. Blankly staring into a cup of coffee, she took a
drag of her cigarette. “Baby, it’s five in the morning.”
“Bad habit. I couldn’t
sleep.” Sonni explained. She looked over to Jessie and asked, “You still
love me?”
Jessie nodded her head and
slowly approached the woman she loved. She straddled Sonni’s good leg and
rested her hands against the sides of Sonni’s head. “Always.” She said as
lightly kissed Sonni’s lips.
Sonni put out her cigarette and
asked, “How can you love me after all the things I done?” Her hands slid up
the sides of Jessie’s body.
“Because I know you and I
know you did what you had to do to survive. I love you and nothing you could
ever do will change that.” Jessie tried her best to get Sonni to understand
that.
“You don’t know what I had
to do…what I did.” Sonni tried to tell her. She lowered her head and placed
a trail of small kisses down Jessie’s neck, stopping at her chest.
Jessie replied, “Maybe it’s
time you told me and then let me decide if it matters. I promise nothing will
change how I feel about you.” She captured Sonni’s lips in a feverish kiss,
which Sonni gladly returned.
Sonni slid her hands under
Jessie’s shirt and sighed as they came to rest on her chest. Jessie’s arms
wrapped around Sonni’s neck and pulled her closer. The feeling of Sonni’s
touch on her body was driving her insane. Impulsively, she began grinding
against Sonni’s thigh. Sonni stopped. She said softly, “If this were before,
I’d have swept you off your feet and carried you to our room. Then I would
have made love to you like I never have before…but I can’t, Jess.”
“Sonni…what’s wrong?”
Jessie asked. She didn’t understand why Sonni wouldn’t make love to her.
She’d be more than willing to make accommodations for Sonni. She questioned,
“Don’t you want me?” It was obvious that Jess needed as well as wanted
Sonni.
“More than
anything…I…Jess, please? If I give you the diary I kept will you read it?
Then you can tell me if you still want me to touch you.” Sonni pleaded.
Jessie smiled a little and
rested her head against Sonni’s shoulder. “It’s just good to have you
home, Sharon. I missed you so much.”
“Good to hold you.” Sonni
replied.
*****
TWO:
SECTION A:
Jessie lay down on the couch and stared at the small tattered book in her
hands. Sonni and the kids were all asleep and she figured that now would be a
good time to begin reading. She opened the first page…
*****
June 5, 2010
Goddamn it all to hell. It’s been a day since I arrived and I want to
go home already. I miss Jessie, and I miss Derri, and all this jungle bullshit
is getting on my nerves. I got my assignments…second in command. In my
regiment there’s one other woman aside from me. Sergeant Corin X. McQuire. We
get along pretty well and we’re bunking together. As it turns out, she has a
wife and two kids at home. Not to mention her dogs, Cheech, Chong, and Toby.
Patrolling is something I’d rather not do. The fighting hasn’t been
terrible, but three men died last night. The little bastards hide in the
elephant grass and you can’t see them at all. Both way someone dies and it’s
not pretty.
-S
*****
June 27, 2010
We were on evening patrol and we heard something move in a bush. I always
tell my men, “If it moves and you can’t see it, then shoot it till it
ain’t moving.” Since our commanding officer was KIA, I was given command.
Anyway, I told them to shoot, because I wasn’t taking any chances. Not there.
My men opened fire and all we heard were shrill screams. We went to check the
bush and they were children we shot. They couldn’t have been older than my
son, Derek. One little girl was still alive, but we knew she was dying a
horrible dead. One of my guys shot her at point blank in the head. She died
instantly, but it’s not fair! Those kids shouldn’t have had to die like
that! There are rules to war and one is you don’t kill women and children. We
killed six children that day and I will never ever forget what I saw in that
bush.
-S
*****
July 19, 2010
Today I found out I’m a mother again. Not only Derek’s, but also
Jessie had twins. Brent Michael and Connor Rae. The only way I would be happier
is if I were there with them. This is really what I needed. The little Commie
bastards got their asses kicked, so while they regroup we drink, play and make
merry. Things are finally looking up for us.
-S
*****
August 14, 2010
Must be the worst day so far. We raided a village and it turns out they
are using old Guerrilla tactics. They have underground tunnels all over the
place and we didn’t know where to start. We found a man and we took him and
his wife and his daughter. We told him to talk and his family would be spared,
and he talked. He showed us every goddamned point of entry there was and every
exit. What we did next…I ordered them to fill the tunnels with explosives.
They did and we killed everything and anything that would have been down there.
Again under my order…the man’s wife and little girl were killed in front of
him and then he died. We took all the villagers and packed them in a hut. We
opened fire and executed them all. When we finished we burned down the hut. No
bodies, nothing living, and the little rat bastards aren’t any the wiser that
we know where they are.
My head hurts and I am afraid of the monster I am becoming. I eat, sleep,
drink, and kill. It’s the way of things around here. It kind of reminds me of
a proverb or something. Someone asked me, “How can you do this day in and
out?”’ I said to him, “A scorpion comes to a river that’s too far and
deep to cross. He says to a swan ‘Will you carry me across?’ The swan
replies, ‘Surely not, or you will sting me!’ The scorpion says, ‘Why would
I then we would both die!’ Half way across the Swan feels a sharp pain in his
back and yells, ‘You stung me! Why!? Now we’ll both die!’ The scorpion
replies, ‘I am sorry. It’s my nature and it’s what I do.’ Both the
scorpion and the swan died.”
Maybe you can ask how it could be my nature to fight and kill. I don’t
know the answer to that question. I just know that if I wasn’t part of me in
basic training, and not in Spain, it sure as hell is part of my nature now. I
suppose war will do that after a while.
-S
*****
September
8, 2010
Just in case anyone gives a fuck…battle at 1400 hours. See ya if I
live.
-S
*****
September 12,
2010
Mission accomplished. We stormed in and took everything we needed. In
some cases my men took what they didn’t need. For Christ’s sake I couldn’t
stop them! Men and children. The women were spared for a while, because they
wanted to rape them. They did and all you could hear were the screams of these
tiny women echoing all over. What
could I do? I can’t stop that many men from doing something. They’re all too
young to understand. I was too young to understand in Spain and I will be honest
and say that I did do things that I am not proud of to this day.
I couldn’t help but think how I would feel if someone hurt my family
like that. What if it were my kids they were killing? What if someone did that
to Jessie? I’d kill them…I’d kill the fuckers and I wouldn’t think twice
about doing it. Not as long as they were dead and bleeding. Nobody gets it.
-S
*****
September 16,
2010
We all pay a price don’t we? After saying this I’m going to have to
burn the whole damn diary so no one can get their hands on it and embarrass the
hell out of me. While we’re being honest, I might as well say it. We went out
to a bar tonight and the place was full of women. They were moving in swarms and
not one of them had any reservations about trying to pick me up. Nope, not them.
As they said, “Who wouldn’t want to bed the Queen of Diamonds?” Well after
the first one grabbed me I started feeling sick because, frankly, I couldn’t
live if I cheated on Jessie. Unfortunately for me I have been so high strung and
horny as hell that I had to leave. I tucked my tail between my legs and made my
way back to camp. I curled up in my sleeping bag and finger fucked myself until
I couldn’t breath. That’s how sad I am. Lucky me, my best friends here know
what I’m going through. Corin did, but she’s MIA. She said she left the
army, but I often wonder why she came back. My second in command, Liam, gets it.
He’s been married five years with two kids and a dog. My buddy.
-S
*****
October 5, 2010
We take the city tomorrow and I feel like there’s a pain in my chest.
I’m scared shitless, because while there’s a chance that I could live
tomorrow, there’s a better chance that I will die. I guess I ought to let you
know who wrote this; because “S” doesn’t help much now does it? I’m
Lieutenant Sharon Rae Randolph,
commanding officer of the 321st regiment. I am also known as the
Queen of Diamonds. I came from a little town in New Jersey, and joined the army
my junior year in high school. When I’m night fighting I’m teaching junior
history. I’m married to a beautiful woman. Her name is Jessica James-
Randolph. She had the most beautiful blonde hair, but before I left she cut it
all off. Now she looks like a cute little pixie. Her eyes are the most
brilliant, shining shade of green. Emerald. I could and have been lost in them
and there’s no place I’d rather be lost in. My little boy, Derek. Derri is a
tiny boy with wavy black hair and light blue eyes. He’s my baby no matter how
big he gets. Connor and Brent…my twins. I’ve never seen them. I hope I see
them.
I know how history can be, and I know that it leaves things out. I also
know that my name will be probably end up in some stupid textbook somewhere in
the future. Hell, my commanding officers told me that much. So now I am afraid
that I have tarnished my name, and my kids’ names with the things I’ve done.
“Lt. Sonni Randolph headed up the most vicious regiment around. They are best
known for being first into battle, quickest to fire, bombing the enemy and
finding their tunnels, turning a blind eye while her men rape village women, and
killing children.” I can just see Derri sitting there saying, “That’s my
mother…”Worse, say I don’t come home…Brent and Connor say, “That’s
the mother we never knew. We lost her to that?”
-S
*****
October 31, 2010
I’m
going home. I’ve been asleep for a while…almost a month. I just slept. I
lost my leg and they’re keeping me here for another month and a half, but
I’m going home. No more fighting, and no more crying. There’s just gonna be
smiling and being ready to go home. I can’t wait. I just wanna hold my babies
and my Jessie. I’m just so glad it’s over. I’m really going home.
-S
SECTION B:
Jessie put the small book down on the table. She brushed the tears away
from her eyes and shook her head. She glanced at her watch; it was ten fifty.
She couldn’t really understand how Sonni could have let so much happen under
her command. She did understand that there was very little that Sonni would be
able do to stop them. Jessie hadn’t read the entire journal. In fact she
hadn’t read most of it. She couldn’t. The parts that she had read were too
much, but they did explain why Sonni seemed to think that she wouldn’t be
loved anymore. She stood up and began walking down the hallway toward their
room. Noticing the door of the nursery open, she made a slight detour. She found
Sonni sitting in the rocking chair, a baby in each arm.
*****
“Ya
know I wasn’t here when you two were born, eh? I was away, and I’m really
sorry about that. Sleepy girl, huh? Let’s put you down now that you’ve
stopped crying.” Carefully she stood up and made her way to the cribs. She was
pretty good with the prosthetic leg; it was without it that worried Jessie.
Sonni placed Connor down and covered her up. She then cradled Brent close to her
body, “My little boy…my son.” She kissed him forehead and carried him to
his crib. Placing him down she ran her fingers over his head. “Got more hair
than me…”
Jessie chuckled from the door
and shook her head. “He does…” she remarked.
Sonni turned around and smiled.
She moved a little bit closer and pulled Jessie into her arms. “You read
anything?” she asked as she buried her nose in Jessie’s hair.
Jessie grinned and replied,
“Yeah…not all of it though. Sonni, I read a little. A couple pages from
every month and, frankly, I don’t want to know more. I now understand what
went on over there and I understand why you feel that you don’t deserve love
but honey, nothing has changed.”
Sonni started limping toward
Jessie. She closed the door to the nursery and followed her wife to their room.
“Things have changed…” Sonni said as she sat down on the bed. She easily
took off her leg and leaned it up against the wall.
“What?” Jessie asked. As
she moved toward Sonni the sound of a truck backfiring rang out in the distance.
*****
Sonni hit the floor with a thud, her hands covering her face. “NO!”
she screamed. “MAKE IT STOP!” Sonni began to sob. She curled up into a ball
and rocked herself back and forth- her body trembled violently.
“Sharon!” Jessie yelped as
she sank to the floor and tried to pull her wife up. “Come on Sonni, it’s
alright…it was a truck.”
Their bedroom door opened and
Derek appeared. His hair was tousled and his eyes were droopy. Seeing his mother
on the floor crying, he went into panic mode. “Mama! What’s wrong with
Mommy?!” He saw the stump where Sonni’s leg used to be and started bawling.
“Mommy!” Derek ran to Sonni and cried, “Mommy…don’t die!”
Jessie looked at both members
of her family and suddenly felt very overwhelmed. She caught Derek before he
reached Sonni and picked him up in the air. “I need you to go to sleep.
Mommy’s going to be fine, I promise. Please? We’ll talk about it in the
morning, okay? That’s very soon.”
Derek nodded as he was put
down. He went running from the room, still crying.
Sonni’s heart started
pounding as her eyes closed. She curled up on the floor and continued to sob,
“Make it stop…please…no more…I’m sorry…I didn’t mean it…”
Jessie rested her hand on
Sonni’s head, “Sonni…come on sweetheart. Everything’s fine. Come on,
let’s get you into bed.” She whispered. Sonni didn’t move, instead she
just lay there and opened her eyes. Jessie leaned down and kissed her cheeks.
“Come on baby…” Sonni
started to loosen up and uncurl. Jessie stood up and offered her hands to Sonni.
Pulling her up, Jessie supported the other side of Sonni. Sonni kind of flopped
down to the bed and tried to pull Jessie down with her.
“I’ll be back…”
“No…I need you.” Sonni
pleaded, “Please don’t go…” she reached out and pulled on Jessie’s
hands.
Jessie smiled faintly and knew
in her heart that she could never deny Sonni anything. “I’ll be right back.
I have to go check on Derek…”
“Promise?” Sonni asked as
she curled herself back into a tight ball.
Jessie leaned down and placed a
tender kiss on Sonni’s lips. “I promise.” She swore.
*****
Jessie was now in Derek’s
room trying to calm the boy down. She held him close to her as he rested his
head on her shoulder. “Mommy…” he cried as he wrapped his arms around her
neck. “Is Mommy gonna die?”
Jessie shook her head and
thought of how best to answer her son. She said quietly, “Mommy’s not gonna
die. She just got really scared by a loud noise.”
“She cried.” Derek pointed
out.
Jessie brushed some hair out of
his face and kissed his cheek. She told him, “I know she cried. Mommy was in a
scary place for a while. There was a lot of loud noise and that scares her now.
You don’t need to worry about her dying, because she won’t. I do need you to
be a big boy though. This might happen again. Sometimes I might need you to sit
with Connor and Brent while I help Mommy. Can you do that?”
“I can…” Derek said as he
closed his eyes. He snuggled closer to his Mama and placed his thumb in his
mouth.
Setting him down, she placed a
kiss on his cheek and whispered; “Good night, my sweet little boy.” She set
off to make her last rounds and be sure that Connor and Brent were sleeping.
*****
Jessie stepped into the room. She found Sonni staring at wall; her knee
was pulled to her chest. “Sharon…baby?” she asked. Sonni didn’t answer;
she just kept staring.
Jessie made her way to the bed
and climbed on. She gently placed her hand on Sonni’s shoulder. The next thing
she knew she was sprawled on her back holding a hand to her stomach. Tears began
streaming down her cheeks as Sonni’s head snapped to the side.
“Oh my God, Jess!” Sonni
yelped as she pulled Jessie into her. “Oh my God, you scared the fuck out of
me! I’m so sorry, Jessie!”
Jessie pushed herself away from
Sonni and sat herself up. She stared at her wife in complete shock. She never
thought that Sonni could hurt her. “Sonni…”
“Jessie, you can’t sneak up
on me like that…I…Jess, I told you you’d get hurt…I’m so sorry.”
Sonni sputtered as she tried her best to control her emotions.
Jessie stood up and made her
way out of the room. She knew that she wasn’t being supportive and that she
shouldn’t go. She just couldn’t get over the fact that Sonni had punched
her. “I need air…”
“Fuck!” Sonni yelled as
Jessie left the room.
*****
Jessie sat by the bedroom door and listening to Sonni’s sobbing. It
broke her heart to know that she couldn’t help with this. Or maybe she could
and she didn’t want to. She thought, “I scared her, that’s all. She loves me and I know she’d never
intentionally hurt me. She’s crying…Sonni doesn’t cry. She needs me and
I’m not with her. I knew better…” Jessie
stood up and walked back into the room. Slowly she rounded the bed and kneeled
down, level with Sonni’s eyes. “You didn’t mean it…”
“No…” Sonni sobbed. She
couldn’t do anything else. Her emotions were completely out of whack and her
head was spinning.
Jessie climbed onto the bed and
lay on her side, facing Sonni. Their foreheads touching, Jessie’s lips
connected with Sonni’s. Her tongue sought out the entrance to her lover’s
mouth and was immediately granted entrance. Her arms wrapped around Sonni’s
neck as Sonni’s arms pulled her ever closer. They finally broke apart and
Jessie commented, “There is one part I’d like to know more about…”
“What part?” Sonni asked.
She wasn’t even sure what she had written in her diary. She just knew that
some of it she never wanted to think about again.
Jessie smiled and said, “The
part where you finger fucked yourself.”
One of Sonni’s hands moved
from Jessie’s and slid it between their bodies. Her hand stopped between her
own legs; she began running her fingers up and down, stopping at her clit.
“Repeat performance.” Sonni moaned into Jessie’s ear.
Jessie stilled Sonni’s hand
and pulled it toward her lips. She closed her mouth over the digits and ran her
tongue over them. Once she released them she whispered, “You taste so
good…on your back…” she commanded. She smiled as Sonni complied. Jessie
slid down and pulled Sonni’s boxers with her.
The first touch of Jessie’s
tongue against Sonni’s moist folds nearly sent her over the edge. Jessie
rested the palms of her hands against the insides of Sonni’s thighs,
effectively spreading them apart. She rammed her hard tongue into her wife’s
hot crevice. “Jess…in me…now!” Sonni pleaded. She thought, “The Queen of Diamonds reduced to nothing…by love no less.”
Jessie removed her tongue and
thrust three fingers into Sonni. She closed her mouth over her clit and began
running her tongue over it. Sonni moaned in pleasure, “Ohhh…fuck me…”
“That’s what I’m
doing…” Jessie breathed as her thrusts became harder and faster.
“Coming….” Sonni moaned
as her body trembled. She never remembered coming so fast or hard in her entire
life. “Jesus, Jessie!” she moaned.
Jess smiled and found a slick
spot inside and began working her fingers over that area. She rested her other
hand on Sonni’s hip as the woman began grinding down on her hand. Jess ran her
lips over Sonni’s clit, letting her tongue brush against it every chance she
got. One final thrust caused Sonni’s body to become lost again in spastic
movements. Jessie removed her fingers as the contractions stopped and crawled up
the bed to lie beside her lover.
Sonni rolled her head to the
side and noticed at Jessie was laughing and holding her hand to her cheek. She
asked, “What’s so funny? I just had the best orgasm of my life and you’re
cackling?!”
Jessie rolled over and buried
her face in Sonni’s neck. She said, “Yes…”
“Mind telling me why?” Came
the irritated question.
“No…your umm…your…”
Jessie couldn’t phrase it right. She swiped a hand across her nose.
“My what? I just showered so
I know I don’t smell…” Sonni commented.
Jessie started laughing harder
as she reached over and placed her hand on Sonni’s stump of a leg. She said,
“Your leg hit my face when you came…I thought it was funny and I got some of
your…well you know… in my nose.”
Sonni arched a thin eyebrow and
pulled Jessie close to her. She said, “Come here and let me show you how much
I missed you…” She kissed Jessie’s lips and commented, “You’re lucky
I’m not a man or you’d have gotten a nose full, huh?”
Jessie smiled and said, “Shut
up and make love to me before I get really turned off.”
“You got it, chicken
lips…” Sonni said with a smirk.
“Excuse me?” Jessie asked.
“Just remembering how you
taste…kinda like chicken.” Sonni replied.
Jessie playfully slapped her,
realizing that things with Sonni wouldn’t be easy. This would be like having a
repeat of The Spanish-Portuguese War, all over. She’d be a mess one minute and
playful the next. “Never complained…”
“Never will.” Sonni said as
she began making love to her wife.
THREE:
SECTION A:
Once again Jessie woke up alone. Six minutes after six on Monday morning,
meaning she had work today. Derek would need to be dropped off at school for
eight and the baby-sitter would be over at seven-thirty to look after the twins.
Jessie thought, “Shit… the baby-sitter. Sonni…” Sonni wouldn’t start
teaching again for a month, after Christmas break. She pulled herself out of bed
and pulled on her “morning clothes.”
*****
Sonni sat on the couch Brent in her arms and Connor propped up between
three pillows. She was taking pleasure of the simple things in life. Xena
reruns on the sci-fi channel and two of her kids. She looked at Brent and
said, “Ya know lil man, you better watch this…one of these days you’re
gonna need some pointers from that guy. Nope, Joxer’s not a very smart
man…can’t get his dream girl so he settles for the disease infested slut.
That’s exactly what not to do…”
Brent smiled at her and began
opening and closing his mouth. Effectively, he made an interesting fish sound.
Connor gurgled from the couch
and put her small bottle back in her mouth.
Sonni smiled and ran a hand
over the little girl’s peach fuzz. “You are gonna break some hearts some
day.” Sonni looked down at the titanium leg. She made a mental note not to
wear shorts in public, as it did look rather strange. “Beautiful girl…”
*****
Jessie watched with interest the interaction between the twins and Sonni.
She seemed more at peace with them then anywhere else. “Morning, baby.” she
said as she entered the room. She walked over to Sonni and placed a kiss on the
top of her head. She leaned down and scooped Connor into her arms and sat down.
“Forgot to tell you…we have a baby-sitter coming at seven-thirty. I can
cancel with her until you start work again.” Jessie said.
Sonni shrugged,
“Naw…let’s be practical. I have one leg and two five-month-old babies. I
might need a little help. You tell Johnson I’d be teaching again after
break?”
Jessie adjusted Connor to burp
her. She replied, “Yeah. He’s gonna give you a call today.”
“What’s the sitter’s
name?” Sonni asked as she started making faces at Brent. She imitated his
“fish impression.”
“Laine. She’s really
nice.” Jessie commented. “Ya know you scared Derri last night?’
Sonni looked at Jessie and
arched an eyebrow. She asked, “What happened last night?”
“You don’t remember? You
basically got scared and curled up on the floor crying after hearing a truck
backfire. Derri saw, you accidentally punched me and we made love. What do you
remember?” Jessie asked as she took Brent from Sonni and put both babies in
their swings.
“Talking to them and then…
nothing. I’m sorry, Jess, I just don’t remember.” Sonni admitted as she
opened her arms to her wife.
Jessie gladly sank into them
and sighed. “It’s okay…but I need to get showered for work and then wake
up Derri.”
“Let me wake him up?” Sonni
asked as she nuzzled Jessie’s hair.
“No need.” Jessie said as
she smiled at Derek. “Come here, sunshine.” She said.
Derek came bounding over to his
mothers and asked, “Where’s your leg?” He asked innocently. He climbed
onto the couch and snuggled into Sonni’s embrace.
Sonni placed a kiss on his head
and replied, “How bout I explain everything after school?” she asked.
“Don’ wanna go to school.
Can I stay with you, just today?” Derri asked. Both Jessie and Sonni looked
over and smiled at the boy. His wavy dark hair was sticking up on the side and
his pants legs were half up his legs.
Sonni replied, “Yeah…I
don’t see why not.”
“Can you tell me now?”
Derek asked Sonni.
“Okay. Well I was outside of
Ho Chi Mihn City and I saw my friend Liam. He was in trouble so I went to help
him. I went and got Liam and I was running back and I stepped on something
called a mine. They blow up when you step on them and I did and my leg got hurt
really badly so they had to take it off.” Sonni explained.
“Is your friend okay?”
Derek asked innocently.
Sonni smiled and smoothed down
his hair. She replied, “Me and Liam went to the hospital together and they had
to take his arm. After that he got to go home to his family, like I did. He
lives close too, so he might come to visit.”
“Really?” Derek asked.
“Really.” Sonni replied.
*****
SECTION B:
Jessie had left early for work and Sonni and Derek were awaiting the
arrival of Laine. As the table, Sonni and Derek were enjoying a breakfast of
coffee, orange juice, and FrootLoops. Brent and Connor were in their baby chairs
on the floor at Sonni’s feet. Derek looked at Sonni and said, “I want a
puppy.”
“You want a puppy?” Sonni
asked with a smile.
Derek nodded and chewed a
mouthful of cereal. He replied, “Mama said I hadda wait ‘til you came home
to ask you.”
Sonni smiled and was suddenly
glad that Jessie took the Bronco today. That meant that the Cavalier was outside
and she could get into that. “Well
we have a baby-sitter coming today, so why don’t we go and get a puppy?”
Sonni asked.
“Silly, you can’t
drive…” Derek pointed out.
Sonni smiled, “I can.”
“You got no leg.” Derek
countered.
“I have no left leg; I use my
right leg for the pedals.” Sonni said with a grin. “We’re set.”
“Oh, cool!” Derek said, a
smile plastered across his face.
Sonni heard the front door open
and stood up as quick as she possibly could. Since she woke up she had discarded
her leg and opted for set of crutches. She was glad they were the kind that
clasped around her arms; she didn’t like the chafing the regular ones gave
you. She clasped them on and made her way into the living room. She found a
young woman standing in the middle of her home. The woman was tall and had long
blonde hair and brown eyes.
The woman asked, “Who are
you?”
Sonni gave her a look and
asked, “The question is who you are and do you know how to knock?”
“I’m Laine and Jessie gave
me a key. Now who are you?” Laine asked again.
Derek came running into the
room and stopped by Sonni. He said, “Mommy, Connor threw up! Hi, Laine.”
“Hi, Derek.” Laine replied
as Sonni hobbled off to the kitchen to replace her leg and clean up her
daughter.
Derek grinned, “Mommy said
we’re gonna get a puppy today.”
“Why aren’t you at
school?” she asked Derek.
“Mommy’s home now and she
said I didn’t have to go today.” The boy replied.
“Oh.” Laine replied. She
never really knew that there was anyone in Jessie’s life. Secretly she had
been hoping that Jess would be interested in her. Obviously, if Derek was
calling this woman Mommy, there must be something between she and Jess.
Sonni came back into the living
room and said, “Derri, lets go finish breakfast. Laine, you can come into the
kitchen.”
Derek went and Laine followed.
*****
SECTION C:
Laine sat next to Sonni and asked, “So who are you?”
Sonni smiled as spooned some
mush into Connor’s mouth. Laine had begun to feed Brent as well. “I’m
Lieutenant Sharon Rae Randolph, commander of the 321st regiment. Also
known as Sonni, Jessie’s wife.”
“You were in Vietnam?”
Laine asked.
Sonni nodded and wiped some
food off of Connor’s mouth. She replied, “Yeah for six and a half months.”
“My brother was KIA over
there.” Laine said.
“My best friend and I were
WIA, and another friend of mine is MIA. I’ve also had a lot of my men be KIA.”
Sonni replied absently. She didn’t really want to talk about this today.
Derek glared at Laine. He knew
that his Mommy wouldn’t want to talk about this. In the two days she had been
home he had observed that talking about where she had been made her unhappy. He
didn’t want that for his mother. He told Laine, “Mommy doesn’t like to
talk about playing pin the tail on the Commie.”
“Oh, okay.” Laine replied
as she went about feeding Brent. She asked, “So how long have you and Jessie
been together?”
Sonni smiled, as this was a
question she could answer. She replied, “We met in high school. We were best
friends and then I went to fight in Spain when I was eighteen. I came back and
she took care of me and we fell in love. We’ve been together for seven years
and had three beautiful children.”
“So I take if you’re very
much in love?” Laine inquired. She figured she could prod a little bit and see
if she still would have a chance with Jess. She figured since Jess never
mentioned Sonni they couldn’t have all that much between them.
Sonni was a little more
perceptive than Laine counted on. She suggested, “Derri, why don’t you go
get dressed so we can go out?”
“Okay…so we can get a
puppy?” He asked.
“Yup.” Sonni replied as the
boy rounded the table and gave her a kiss on the lips.
“I love you, Mommy.” He
scampered off to get dressed.
*****
“You have no chance with her.” Sonni said as soon as she was sure
that Derek was out of range.
Laine smiled and said, “A
girl can try. How do you know I don’t have a chance?”
“She’s my wife. She loves
me, not you. Don’t try and come between us, because you won’t like the end
result.” Sonni growled.
“If I have no chance then how
come she’s been taking me to bed the whole time you were gone? How come she
never told me about you?” Laine barked.
Sonni was seething. She
narrowed her eyes and growled, “You lie…”
“Do I, stumpy?” Laine
snarled. She wondered if Sonni would leave her here today after this. She
realized she’d probably be out of a job. “She whimpers right before she has
an orgasm…”
Sonni stood up and made her way
up the stairs. She would have thrown out Laine on the spot but reason says that
there would be no way she could handle three kids on her own all day. She went
into her bedroom and dialed the number for the school.
“Highland High.” The voice
answered.
“Rita, it’s Sharon.”
Sonni said.
“Sharon, how are you?” Rita
asked.
“Alright, can I talk to
Jess?” Sonni asked.
“Hold on, and I’ll put you
through.” Rita replied.
Sonni waited until she heard
Jessie pick up. She said, “Jess?”
“Sharon, what’s wrong?”
Jess asked.
Sonni sighed, “Well lets put
it this way. I’m gonna take Derek to get a puppy.”
Jess laughed, “Figures.”
Sonni continued,
“Laine…she’s not staying here Jessie. I need you home now ‘cos I can’t
deal with three kids alone.”
“What happened?” Jessie
asked with a frown.
“Tell ya when you get here.
She’ll be here when you get home.” Sonni said.
“Alright, I’ll call
Johnson.” Jessie said. “I love you.”
“Love you too.” Sonni
replied.
*****
SECTION D:
Jessie opened the door of the house and found Sonni and Derek on the
couch with Brent and Connor. She approached her family, “Where’s Laine and
what happened?”
Sonni turned to Derek and
asked, “Derri, I’m gonna put your brother and sister in their swings. Can
you sit with them?”
“Ok,
Mom.” Derek replied. He could sense that nothing good would come out of this
anyway.
“Thank
you.” Sonni said as she kissed his brow. Jessie took both children and
strapped them in. Derri turned his attention to the program he had been watching
on the television.
*****
Sonni and Jessie made a slight detour to the hallway. Jess asked, “What
happened?”
“You
didn’t fuck her did you?” Sonni whispered.
Jessie’s
eyes widened as her jaw dropped. “God no! Sonni why would you even think
that!?”
“She
said you did, and that you whimper right before you come. You do, Jess.” Sonni
explained as she brushed a tear from her cheek.
Jessie
frowned and couldn’t belive that Laine would use something like that against
her. It was supposed to be girl talk. She put her arms around Sonni’s neck.
She said, “Laine came out with Rita and I and we were having girl talk. Sex
came up and, well, that came out.”
“She
called me stumpy.” Sonni said as her face dropped.
Jessie
felt anger building up inside her. She was so pissed that she couldn’t see
straight. “She called you stumpy?”
“Yeah.”
Sonni said as she lowered her lips to Jessie’s. “I love you.”
Jessie
returned the kiss and smiled, “I’m going to kick her out of our house.”
“I
need to sit down…I think I’m gonna vomit.” Sonni said as she limped down
the hall to her bedroom.
*****
Jessie stormed into the kitchen and glared a Laine. She snarled, “How
dare you?”
“What?”
Laine asked with an innocent smile. She knew damn well what.
“Stumpy?
You told her you fucked me?” Jessie questioned. “Give me my house keys.”
Laine
frowned and threw the keys at Jess. They hit her shoulder and landed on the
floor. “You never told me about her.”
“You
never asked and I never knew it was your business. She is my wife and I love her
with all of my heart. You hurt her and you hurt me.” Jess told her.
“You’d
fuck me,” Laine said as she stood up. “I know you would and it’s only her
that keeps you from doing so!” she said as she left the kitchen and the house.
She didn’t see any point staying around.
*****
SECTION
E:
Derri had gone across the street to play with his friend and the twins
were napping. Sonni lay in bed staring at the ceiling. Tears were rolling down
her cheeks as she played with a button on the front of her shirt. Jess stepped
into the room and said softly, “Sonni…” She sat on the bed.
Sonni
turned her head to the side and whispered, “Jess…I…I’m sorry.”
“For
what?” she asked as she stretched her compact form over Sonni’s body.
Sonni’s
arms wrapped around Jessie’s waist as she nuzzled her face into her wife’s
neck. “That you have to take more time off and find a new baby-sitter. I
didn’t mean to cause trouble.”
“No…it
wasn’t you.” Jessie said as she smoothed down some of Sonni’s hair. She
placed tender kisses over Sonni’s cheeks. “You didn’t do anything,
darling. I love you so much that I’d go to hell and back to make sure that
no-one hurts you again.”
“She’s
pretty…I have scars and no leg. Why would you want me?” Sonni asked softly.
“Because
I love you. Scars and all. She’s not pretty, Sharon. She’s dark and mean and
I don’t and won’t ever love anyone the way I love you.” Jessie responded.
She meant every word she said.
Sonni’s
arms tightened around Jessie. She whispered, “Then that’s all I’ll ever
need to know.”
TO
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