ForevaXena's FanFic . . .

Lost Friends

by Michelle Galea

Disclaimer: Although these characters are my own. Any resemblance of the characters of Xena and Gabrielle, who belong to MCA/Universal and Renaissance Pictures. No infringement on their rights is intended.

Subtext disclaimer: Anyone against two consenting adult females in a loving relationship? See ya. Not allowed to read in your area. Bye. If your underage, so am I, But I never write anything but PG...maybe next time. Sorry no sex in this, just kissing.

Violence: Yep we have a bit of that in here, you can handle it.

Language: Yep they have bad mouths, but not too bad. I'm still a little new to this writing world.

Music: A1:  Every time, Celine Dion:  It's all coming back to me now and Vitamin C:  Graduation - Friends Forever. No copyright infringement is intended.

Thank you Cindy (ForevaXena) for beta reading this story for me !!!*S*

I love feedback so tell me what you think, but please be nice: xenano1fan@hotmail.com

It had been eight years since I'd seen Di. We were very young when our lives had been ripped apart. Di's family had moved across town and my family had moved overseas. Eight years later here I am, back from America, in Australia and seeing Di.

I'm now 18 years old. My name is Mickey and I have short blonde hair. I don't think Di would notice me cause I used to wear it long. I cut it short last year and kinda like it like this.

Di looks the same to me. She still has long black hair and I already know she still has those amazing blue eyes, but she has grown taller - very tall - about six feet. We are complete opposites. While I'm short and blonde, she's tall with long black hair. Like day and night.

She doesn't know I'm back I don't think I have the guts to tell her, she won't remember me anyway. Di is two years older then me, and like I said, we had be ripped apart from our friendship eight years ago. She was always my hero, my best friend and my family. When we moved our parents had thought we, no I, would forget. They were wrong...I could never forget Di.

She just looked at me and my breath caught. But as I expected she turned straight around; she doesn't remember me. If my mother were still alive I would have cursed her for taking me away from Di. But my mum died four months ago. That's another reason I'm here, to forget the memory of my mum suffering. She died from cancer and she suffered for a long time before the disease claimed her. She is in peace now and that is what counts

I look around noticing a lot of people from our younger years. There's the bitch Kylie, she is much taller now, nearly as tall as Di. She has long blonde hair and wicked brown eyes. I always thought there was something wrong with her because she kept on pushing me around when I was young. I don't know why, she still looks wicked with all that leather she is wearing even though we are at school. I've still got two years till I finish school, Di has one year left.

This is my first day back and I'm really nervous. I think I'll try and stay away from the groups. I can see Di now walking towards a big group of girls. She looks really wild, her hair flowing everywhere. They all clump hands like men do and walk off together.

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I'm in class now. I have just walked in. Because of my being very smart I'm allowed to do two year 11 subjects so I'm in a year 11 class and everybody is giving me funny looks. Suddenly the room goes quiet and Di walks in wearing a pair of black jeans and a black sleeveless top that reads, "Bite Me". I almost laughed out loud. That was her favorite saying when we where young. She goes and sits with... oh my god...Kylie... she's friends with her! She used to beat me around and Di used to be my hero by saving me from the beatings. But like I said, we're not young anymore.

Class went by in a flash, and with a sigh I got up off my chair, grabbed my bag and walked out of the room. I don't know why, but I didn't like the sight of Di and Kylie flirting with each other. Not because they where both girls, but because it was...well... Di and Kylie. I felt a pain in the pit of stomach.

I walked out of the room, went outside and sat on a chair in the corner of the courtyard. Then I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around to see a blonde with curly hair. She looks very familiar. Then it clicked - it was Eph, "Eph?"

"So it is you Mickey?" she asked softy.

"Yeah how'd you know..."

She gave me a laugh, "Well I didn't know at first cause you did have long hair the last time I saw you, but I could never forget your green eyes, that's when I was sure it was you. How have you been Mickey?"

I swiped my fingers through my short hair and gave little laugh, which sounded like a nervous speak, "Me, never better."

Then she looked around as if trying to find someone " Wait a minute, there's something missing in this picture. Have you seen Di yet? She'll be so happy to see you."

I gave a little shrug "I don't think she remembers me. She looked at me earlier and turned right around. I'll try again later, OK?"

She gave a small smile, "Well, got to go. Pony will be glad to see you."

Pony or the "little amazon", ha. "I remember Pony. Tell her I said Hi!" I yelled to Ehp as she walked away

After school was over I walked back to my old house. I used to live next door to Di, but I didn't know if she had moved back to the old house or not. I sometimes get really lonely cause I live by myself in this house.

My question was answered when I looked through the window to see Di playing with a big black dog. It looked like a Doberman, black and thin. Di had a big smile on her face, a smile that brightened her face.

I quickly moved away from the window before she saw me. I would be embarrassed if she did. I quickly moved up to my room to start unpacking, I knew sooner or later I was going to have to see her.

It was three days later when I finally had the nerve to go see her

I went to next door and knocked and middle-aged lady with salt and pepper hair answered the door, "Yes?"

My hands started to shake I was so nervous, "Um.Um I-is..." I swallowed once "...is Di here "

"Yeah." She looked at me twice and then broke into a big smile, "Mick! Oh my god how long has it been six, seven years?"

"Nope it's been eight"

"Eight! Wow look at you, you're all grown up. You where a little girl the last time I saw you." She looked around again, "How is your mother, Mick?"

"Mum died a couple of months ago of cancer, Terry."

"Darling I'm so sorry to hear that. Oh look at me I'm so rude, come on in Mick, come in. Di will be so happy to see you."

I gave a shrug, "I don't think she even remembers me. I saw her a couple of times these past few days and I don't think she remembers me at all." I said sadly.

Terry gave me a pat on the back and said "Nah, she'll remember you. How could she ever forget her best friend Mickey?"

"Yeah your probably right." I said, more to convince myself.

Two hours went by and still no Di. I was getting tired and bored. Giving a yowl I got up, "Thank you so much for your kindness, Terri. I'll come back tomorrow to see if she around."

She walked me to the door, "Ok darling. Sorry I don't know where Di is tonight. Probably over at one of her mates houses. I'll tell her you came by, ok?"

"Um...OK Terry, you have a good night." I said and walked out.

It was about 2:30 in the morning when I heard the doorbell ring. Who could that be at this time of the morning?

I got out of bed and answered the door, "Hello?"

"Um Mick, it's Di. Can...can I come in?"

Di!

'Di!' I quickly opened the door. We both had nervous smiles.

"Hey Di...um...long time no see." I said trying not to show my racing heart.

Di walked in and we both sat down on the couch. Di turned around to face me and just looked without saying a word. I tilted my head to the side waiting for her to say something.

"It's really you Mick." she said just above a whisper.

"Mm, well the last time I checked it was."

The next thing I felt were her arms around me giving me a big hug "Oh my god how are you Mickey? The last time I saw you was 8 years ago. Look at you, you've grown so much and you've cut your hair."

My face turned red from all the attention she was giving me "You've grown up as well Di, you're taller. When I saw you at school a couple of days ago I had to look up and up and up." I said with a laugh.

"Yeah I saw you at school too, but I wasn't sure it was you. When mum said you had come by I was out of the house like a rocket, I couldn't wait to see you."

"I've missed you so much. When mum died..."

"Your mum died?"

"Yeah of cancer, but enough talk about me. How have you been Di?"

"Oh me, I've been OK. I've got a group of friends at school. Some of them will be glad to see you after all these years."

I didn't miss the "some" friends. "Why some Di?" I questioned, "Why will only some will be happy to see me Di?"

I could see she was struggling to think of an answer, "OK, all except Kylie." She looked at me like she had done something wrong.

"Kylie huh? Kylie the bitch you mean, the one who use to beat me around." I already knew who Kylie was but I just wanted to hear it from Di.

She rubbed the back of her neck, "Yeah Mick that's the one. She not so bad anymore but I know she doesn't like you at all. It was one thing when you where gone, but now that you're back .... I don't know what she'll do."

"Yeah well let's see her try to touch me, I'm not as young as I used to be and I can kick her ass if I have to." I got up off the chair, "You wanna drink?"

"Nah, I'm alright. Look, I'm tired and I've got to go. I'll talk to you tomorrow at school, OK Mick?" She gave me a quick peek on the cheek and walked out of the door closing it softy behind her.

"Bye." I whispered, rubbing where she had kissed.

And I went to bed.

The weeks went by with Di coming over every day to pick me up and take me home....
I've asked her to stay over a couple of times but always got the same answer...I can't. The first day I met Di's friends they where all great, all expect Kylie. She kept on giving me a wicked eye like I was some kind of punching bag just waiting to be punched. I hadn't seen her for years and I still hated her.

One afternoon I was going out to the shopping center when Kylie stopped me

"Well, well, well, what do we have here, hmm?"

"What do you want? " I asked trying to keep the tremble out of my voice.

"Oh nothing, just wanna chat."

"About?"

"Well I just heard your mother died of cancer...um...how long...8 months ago?" She paused, putting her finger on her chin. I was flaming about now, wanting to kick her ass, just begging her to give me a reason to. "How long did it take her to die? I really hope she suffered for a loooong, looong time...Mm, I never really liked her anyway."

At these words I lost it, I clenched my hands into fists and punched her hard in the face feeling something break. "BITCH!" I yelled, "HOW DARE YOU TALK ABOUT HER LIKE THAT...How dare you?"

She was still on the floor holding her face. I didn't see the fist coming toward my face with double force, WHAM! The blow was so hard that I fell backwards onto the road, turning around to my right to see a car coming my way. Shit! Quickly forgetting about the pain, I jumped to the footpath and out of the path of the racing cars. Then I was met by another blow to the face. Fuck, she's strong!

Then I completely lost it again. I started punching her left, right and center, hitting wherever I could hit. I didn't even stop when she fell to the ground, blood pooling around her face from her slit lip and bloody nose. I just couldn't stop. I felt a madness to drive this woman to her knees and make her beg me to stop, she never did. She didn't even make a sound. By the time I was finished with her I had knocked her out cold. I just stood there, blood all over my hands and cloths, horrified at what I had done. I didn't even hear the police arrive until I was kicked to the ground. I started to struggle, telling them to let me go, I didn't want to go to the police. I just wanted to go to the bloody shop goddamn it, I wanted Di!

I was dragged to my feet, handcuffed and pushed into the car before a female officer climbed in after me. The whole ride was in silence. Once we where there I was pulled out and taken to a waiting room. I waited for about 3 hours. I still had the blood on my hands and clothes, until...Di walked in with a disappointed look on her face. She told me to 'come on' and just shook her head. I put my head down feeling like a total dickhead at the moment.

Di took me back home without even a word. She dropped me off at my house and she walked home. I just looked at her back with tears rolling down my face "I'm so sorry Di." I whispered, feeling my heart break but not knowing why.

Part 2

It was Monday, Di hadn't come to pick me up. I was up thinking all night and I just couldn't think of a reason why wouldn't she talk to me. Why have I upset her? OK, I beat up Kylie. I didn't like the way she was talking about my mother. I hate Kylie, I really hate her, God I HATE HER SO MUCH! She makes me so mad. When I got to school I heard people talking about how Kylie was in the hospital. She wasn't hurt bad, but had a lot of cuts and bruises. I don't care really, I feel a little guilty, but other then that I don't care. She hurt me for years when we were young. And now that I've hurt her Di pissed at me!.

Eph came running to me at recess "Hey girl what's up with you and Di?" She gave me a wicked smile, "I heard you gave Kylie a good one...so what's up?"

I looked at my old friend giving a sigh "Eph if anyone said something bad about your mother, dead or alive, would you kick their ass?"

"Of course I would" Then it dawned on her " She talked about your mother..."

I finished for her, "And I snapped Eph, I snapped. I wanted to hurt her, Eph. I just kept on beating her till she was lying on the ground out cold...I...I don't know what happened Eph, I snapped I, god." I sighed, rubbing my forehead then I looked up at her, "Have you seen Di around? I really would like to talk to her."

"Um..." Eph looked up at me regretfully.

"What?" I asked.

"Di said she didn't want to hear about you...said she needed time to think, I don't know if you've heard but..." She swallowed and I knew I was going to have my heart broken again. "Di and Kylie are lovers, Mick...I'm sorry you had to hear this from me. That's why Di was so upset, they're lovers, she cares about Kylie."

"Oh gods..." I felt my knees buckle and I fell to the ground, tears rolling down my cheeks. "God, I've stuffed our friendship...god..." I felt my heart breaking. I thought I knew Di; I didn't know her at all. If I had known they were lovers I would have left Kylie alone.

Eph helped me up and walked me to a quiet corner "Hey come on Mick, it's alright." She looked at my face and softy traced the bruise on my cheek." She got you one good one didn't she, huh?"

"Yeah." I didn't know what else to do so I told Eph, "I'm going to go home sick." I said bye to Eph and walked home. I noticed that only Eph had come to see me at school today, none of the group did. I suppose that's what happened when you're friends with Di. If she's not your friend, the others are not either.

Two weeks went by, and still Di didn't come to see me or let me see her long enough to explain. To tell her how sorry I was. Every time I saw her she would grab Kylie, who was out of hospital now, and walk off. I will confess I am jealous, and somewhere along the line I started to get feelings for Di, but I know I will never act them out as long as Kylie is in Di life. They will stay hidden in my heart, a heart that breaks every time I see Di with Kylie.

Tonight I am singing at a local club. I used to do that a lot when I was younger in America. I asked the owner of the club, and he agreed happily. I will only sing one song today, maybe as the weeks go by I will sing more.

School went by quickly today with only Eph and Pony coming to see how I was. Somehow the whole school found about my singing and is coming to see me tonight. I'm so nervous; I wonder if Di will come.

I'm getting ready to get on stage. I wore a pair of Black jeans and a white tank top. I'm going to sing GRADUATION- FRIENDS FOREVER by VITAMIN C. I've always loved that song.

The applause and cheering that greeted the raising curtains was deafening to say the least. I can't remember any other time when I was more nervous than I am now. I waited for the cheers to die down a little before signaling to start the opening of my song.

So we talked all night about the rest of our lives

Where we're gonna be when we turn 25

I keep thinking times will never change

Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back

No more hanging out cause we're on a different track

And if you got something that you need to say

You better say it right now

cause you don't have another day

cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound

I keep thinking of that night in June

I didn't know much of love but it came too soon

And there was me and you and we got real blue

We'd stay at home talking on the telephone

We'd get so excited and we'd get so scared

Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels. . .

I opened my eyes and looked around trying to find a tall blue-eyed beauty; I can feel her here. When I spotted her she was looking at me and our eyes locked.

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change

Come whatever,

We will still be friends forever

I moved my eyes away from Di's, still feeling her eyes on me, and walked around the small stage as I sang, I feel something burst in me from looking at her. She hadn't looked at me in weeks. I felt I had a chance.

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money

When we look back at now will our jokes still be funny?

Will we still remember everything we learned in school

Still be trying to break every single rule?

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?

Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?

I keep-keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking its our time to fly

And this is how it feels. . .

Finding Di again I sang my favorite part:

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change

Come whatever,

We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?

Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us around

Will these memories fade when I leave this town?

I keep-keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking that it's our time to fly

As we go on, we remember

All the times we had together

And as our lives change

Come whatever, we will still be friends forever.

When I finished there were cheers and whistles. I looked at Di and she had a smirk on her face, but other then that she was still; then that smirk turned into a full-on smile. She started to clap and call my name, "You go girl." I felt my cheeks turn hot, as I walked down the stage. She pushed to the front and hugged me, she told me she was sorry. I told her not to worry and that we'd talk about it at my house. She just nodded, mutely.

After 30 minutes I finally got out of the room, saying thank you to all of the people who told me that I had a lovely voice. Di walked me to my house, and we had a bit of a chat.

"So why didn't you talk to me these past couple of weeks?" I asked. Might as well get straight to the point

"Um..." she said while rubbing the back of her neck, "I was mad. You beat Kylie till she was out cold and I care for her."

"You two are lovers?" I asked trying to hide my hurt.

Di looked at me nervously, "How..." she cleared her throat, "how did you know?"

"Oh Eph told me. I didn't know why you were so upset till she told me you two were lovers and that you cared for her." I don't know why I had to ask this question, "Do you love her?"

"Excuse me?"

"Do you love her?"

"No...we just use each other for the sex, but we do care for each other, why do you ask?"

"Oh just wondering. So did Kylie tell you WHY we had the fight?"

"Yeah she said that you just came up to her and started to hit her. She said she would have fought back but she didn't want to hurt one of my friends."

I just stood there in shocked silence, "WHAT! She lied. She gave me a black eye if you had cared enough to see that I was hurt as well. I was going to the shop to buy some things when that little bitch came up to me and started to talk about my mother. I know she's dead, but that doesn't make a difference. What she said about my mother was very hateful, your lover or not, if she talks about my mother like that again, I'll kick her ass."

I was now flaming. How could Di believe her over me? Because they are lovers? I know we haven't seen each other for years, but she should know I don't act violently for no reason.

I looked at Di. She had this cold look on her face, like a look that you get when you're ready for a fight. I'd only seen this look once when we were young and Kylie pushed me over and I fell and broke my arm; boy did Di kick her ass."

"What's wrong Di?" I asked. Her face was turning a red color and I could swear I could see smoke coming out of her ears.

"I'll kill her!" she snarled.

I was shocked. it looked like Di's eyes where turning black with rage.

"What?" I choked.

"She lied to me...we may be lovers...we care for each other. Well I did care for her, but there needs to be trust in what we have, now there is no trust, not anymore"

OK, my insides where smiling; joy filled me.

"What are you going to do, Di?"

"She's out of the group. She's done enough damage to our friendship. I'm putting a stop to it."

"Oh OK...um, I'm in the group?" I asked nervously.

She turned to me, her eyes going warm again "Of course you are, Mick. I'm really sorry about the past few weeks. I was really pigheaded. I promise I will not judge again before I ask for both sides of the story."

I let out a breath I wasn't aware I was holding, "Thank you."

I looked at her...n uncomfortable silence. She put her arms out offering me a hug, "Come here."

I dove in.

Part 3

Di had gone home later that night. She still won't sleep over, I don't know why. I'm really nervous to be at school today. I know Di will get into a fight. She has to work off that rage from last night. I could tell before she left that she was still pissed.

I heard a knock on my door, "Di, come on in."

I didn't bother to look at the door as Di walked in. I didn't hear anything so I turned around to be met by Kylie "Hello my sweet."

"What the hel..." I didn't even get the words out when I felt something sharp go through my stomach. Grabbing my stomach I looked down. I could see the handle of a knife sticking out. "Why?" I choked. I could feel my blood slipping between my fingers. I know I was blacking out, the pain was going away. The last thing I heard was Kylie's evil laughter, "That's what you get for taking Di." then everything went black.

I woke up in a strange place. There was white smoke everywhere. As far as I knew I was by myself. There was this guy...more like an angel, he had wings on his back. I quickly looked down at my stomach; there was no wound.

"Where am I, and who are you?"

"My name is Michael. I am an arch Angel"

"Oh god, I'm dead."

"No, you're not dead."

"How.."

"I can read your mind. This is my home, Heaven. It is not your time yet; you will live for many more years to come. You are in the middle of the living and dead passage."

It seemed so peaceful here.

"What happens if I don't want to go back. What if I want to stay here?"

Michael walked up to me.

"Close your eyes Mickey. This is what is happening now."

I closed my eyes and saw a vision.

I could see Di opening my front door, she looked around till she spotted me. There was blood all over the floor and me. I could tell she was trying to stay calm, "No..." she whispers when she feels my neck, "Gods no, Mickey NO!"

I open my eyes with a start, tears rolling down my face, "She'll get over it." I state as calmly as I can with tears still falling.

"Close your eyes again." Michael replies.

"Why?"

"I'm about to show you what will happen if you stay dead. She can't lose you for the second time; you are soulmates forever."

I close my eyes again.

I can see Di again...she looks much thinner, her cloths hanging loosely on her. It looks like she is in a cell jail cell. Then with tears rolling down her face she pulls out a gun. Cocking the trigger I hear her whisper, "I'm coming Mick...won't be long." Putting the gun to her head I close my eyes but the image is still there...BOOM! I see her fall to the ground in a boneless heap.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Take the image away Michael, send me back damnit."

"Open your eyes Mickey and it will go away."

I open my eyes to see Michael in front of me.

"Why was she in the cell," I asked out of breath, tears rolling faster down my face.

"When she found you, you were not dead, but dying. You are still dying now, but we are going to change that, aren't we? They had taken you to the hospital and after two days you had died. Di was the only person near you at the time. She had your blood on her hands. Kylie must have left the knife near you without her prints. Di picked up the knife when she saw it and her prints were on the knife. She would have been sentenced to life in prison. After six months she would have taken her life. A part of her soul would have been missing, and that soul is you."

"So we are soulmates?"

"Yes, now you must go. You will wake up in a hospital bed."

"Ok."

"Close your eyes."

I felt lightheaded and then I opened my eyes. Like he said I was in a hospital bed. Suddenly, "Oww..." a groan escaped between my clenched lips. My stomach hurts.

I heard movement on my left, "Mick?" It was Di. I turned to her and gave a weak smile. It hurt too much to talk.

"I'll call the doctor." She reached up behind me and pressed a red button.

I looked at her, noticing the disheveled hair and wrinkled clothes and giving a weak smile. I got one in return. Di then got up and kissed my forehead; I closed my eyes when I felt the softness of her lips.

"Thank god you're back. Welcome home." she whispered before she moved to let the doctors in.

Two weeks went by before I could sit up and eat solid food. I told the cops it was Kylie that had come in to my home and stabbed me. I had been stabbed with a pocketknife. They say it was a miracle that I lived. Thank you Michael. If it weren't for him I would have died.

Kylie was sentenced to life in prison. I'm so happy she is out of our lives.

Every day Di and I grew closer and before I knew it, I was healed. There is a scar, but only a small one. It will, however, always bring back the painful times.

I went to school and was greeted by the group. Di would stay with me every day unless we had different classes; she had become very protective of me.

Our lives had become normal again. My feelings had grown for her during the year. Today is the day Di has agreed to stay over. I'm so excited; I think Di's at the door now.

I opened the door and was greeted by my heart

"Hi, come in," I said cheerfully.

She walked in holding a bag on her back.

"Just go put your bag in my room."

"OK," she answered while she walked down the hall to my room.

Let's get that movie, "Hey Di?" I called to my room.

"Yeah?" she answered while sticking her head out of the door.

"What movie do you wanna watch?"

"Whatever, I don't mind."

"OK then. You ever seen the movie Bound?"

"Yep, you?"

"Nope," I lied. I've watched the movie more times then I care to admit.

"OK then we'll watch that," she said as she walked from my room. I looked at her and my breath caught. I just couldn't stop staring at what she was wearing. Could her sleeping shirt get any shorter? She had on a short white sleeping shirt and underwear, nothing else. God why does she do this to me?

I must have been staring because she swiped her hand over my eyes.

"Anything wrong, Mick?"

"Um no, no, nothing is wrong...I just need some water that's all," I said nervously and went to get some water for my needy mouth.

When I came back from the kitchen Di was already in the lounge lying on the couch.

"Di I'm just gonna get changed, won't be long."

She gave a nod and I went to get into my sleeping things.

I quickly pulled on a pink nightly that stopped mid thigh and walk to the lounge.

Then I remembered I only had one couch and Di was lying on it. Not wanting to be rude I went to sit on the floor.

"What are you doing?" I heard her say.

"Sitting."

"Don't sit on the floor Mick, come on, get on the couch with me."

"Um, no it's OK. I'm nice and cozy here...you stay there." I didn't think I could handle being that close to Di without touching anything.

"No way. You are not going to sit on the floor in your own home. I'll sit on the floor and you get your butt on the couch now." OK, time for a deal. I'm not letting my best friend sit on the floor and she won't let me, so we will both have to find a way to sit on the couch.

"OK, how about we lie head to toe, you one side, me on the other?"

"OK."

After about ten minutes of jumping around trying to get into a comfortable position, we were ready to watch the movie.

I turned off the light we lay in silence watching the movie...till the sex scene. There was a movement here and then a movement there. I couldn't take it anymore so I got up and walked to my room.

"Di, I'm going to bed OK? Are you sleeping here or in the bed with me? I have a pretty big bed so it will fit the both of us."

"I'm coming with you."

God, did I have to open my mouth? This is gonna be a very long night!

Part 4

All night I tossed and turned, I couldn't sleep. After tossing and turning for 3 hours I got out of bed and walked to the couch, I couldn't stand being near Di. I was hot and frustrated. I didn't want to admit it to myself before, but I think I'm in love with Di. I can't stop thinking about her. What happens if I tell her I'm in love with her? What if she leaves me? Maybe she doesn't love me back. What happens if I make a fool of myself? There are so many "what ifs". I could feel the burning of tears on the back of my eyes, and I let them fall. I fell face first onto the couch and cried. I was in love with Di and didn't know what to do. The next thing I felt were long warms arms encircling me and I heard a deep voice whisper in my ears.

"Its gonna be alright." I didn't know what to do so I turned around and layed my face under Di's chin; the sobs had overtaken me and I cried until I fell asleep.

Then next morning I woke up in an empty bed. Di must have brought me to bed. I got up and looked around the house, but I couldn't find Di anywhere. Maybe she didn't like the way I had acted last night. I went into the kitchen and saw a note:

Mick,

I didn't want to wake you up. I've gone for my morning run. I'll be back at about 9:30; I might be bringing a friend I want you to meet.

Later,
Di

I looked up at the clock it was 9:30 now. Di should be here any minute.

Right on cue Di walked, in her Red T-shirt sticking to her. She looked so hot!

"Morning Di, how was your run?"

"Great," she said nervously. Hmm, wonder what's wrong with her, then I realized that she was not alone. she had a red head with her.

"Di who's your friend?"

"Um, this is Tammy. Mick meet Tammy; Tammy meet my best friend Mick."

I nodded politely to her, but the way Di was looking at Tammy I knew there was something else.

"Um, Mickey...Tammy is my girlfriend."

I tried to hide the hurt as much as I could. Why am I always the last to find out....

"Ohh that's nice...how long?" I asked.

" About two weeks. We met in a bar, um, the one in the city."

"OK."

There was silence in the room. Tammy was the first to speak.

"Um, I have to go...need to take mum out to the Doc's. I'll see you later, 'K Di?" She eached out and kissed Di firmly on the lips. Pulling away she walked out, but before stepping out she yelled, "Later Mickey, nice meeting ya."

I didn't say anything; I wanted to hurt her. Taking a deep breath I turned my eyes to Di who was still watching Tammy walk down the path. Giving a soft growl I turned around and stomped to the kitchen; I am not in a good mood I can tell you that.

Di followed. I know she could tell I was pissed, very pissed. Why does she always have a woman in her arms, and why wasn't it me? Maybe I need to act more like the woman she likes? Yeah that's what I'll do. Making a plan in my mind...I will start tomorrow. I have to be sexy, wear leather and act cool."

"What wrong with you, sleep on the wrong side of the bed?" she said laughing.

I didn't think anything was funny "Ha, Ha, Ha...very funny."

She walked up to me and put her hand on my shoulder. I moved my shoulder away from her touch; I knew that would hurt her.

"What the hell is wrong with you? I bring someone to meet you and you go all shity. What is it that has made you so mad?" she questioned. I knew she was trying to keep the hurt out of her voice.

"Nothing." I turned around and gave her a sweet smile "Just slept on the wrong side of the bed, so to speak." I will win your heart Di if it's the last thing I do.

"Fine let's go out," Di stated, already walking towards the front door. As always...I followed.

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A new day today, first thing's first. Shopping my favorite activity.

I quickly check my bank account. I have $200.00 dollars, just enough for leather pants and some groovy tops.

I spent the day buying anything that looked nice, sexy and would make a man or woman sweat.

By the end of the day I was tired and hungry. Tomorrow I will be singing and I'm not going to wear my jeans. I'm gonna wear something sexy. I wanna sing something about love, but hot as well.

Once I got home I went inside and jumped straight onto the bed. I didn't hear from Di today, she spent the day with that red head, Tammy. I felt my eyes go heavy and went with it; my last thought was of Di, my heart.

The next day school went calmly. Even though Di was with her girlfriend, I stayed with Eph and Pony. Not wanting to be an outcast without Di.

Onstage, Pony must have seen me looking at Di and the red head and whispered in my ear, "What's the matter Mick...you jealous?"

"No," I grumbled, "Just watching."

"Watching her kissin' her girl, huh?"

"Yep," I didn't really like the word HER girl, I wanna be her girl.

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Finally it was time for me to sing. I hadn't shown anyone what I was gonna wear. I wanna see their faces when they see me. I'm gonna sing a song I wrote myself. I wrote it when I was 16. I remember it had taken me ages to finish the whole song. I've never sung it to anybody; haven't got a name for it eaither.

Finally I was ready, looking at myself in the mirror. I do admit I look hot. I have a great body and I'm wearing a pair of black leather pants and a black bra with a leather jacket. Giving myself a smirk, I fix my make up a little. I hear the sound of cheering and whistling and I know they're ready. I didn't expect what would happen when I walked out. The club went deathly quiet. Ha, I shocked them all! Then I spotted Di looking at me with her mouth hanging open. I gave myself a high five.

Walking to the microphone I started to talk.

"Er, Hi. Thank you all for coming."

I heard a yell from the crowd, "If ya wear things like that all the time, I'll pay to see ya!"

"Thank you," I answered.

"Yeah, so would I."

"Me too."

"I'm in."

"OK, OK," I gave a smirk "Can I sing please?" Everybody shut their mouths.

"Thank you. OK, I'm gonna sing a song I wrote myself. It's very special to me. I haven't got a name for it so you're all just gonna have to go with the flow." Taking a deep breath I let the music go until it was time to sing.

Lately, I'm not who I used to be...

Someone's come and taken me where I don't wanna go...

If I knew exactly what I had to do, in order to be there for you when you were feeling low..."

And all the things we ever wanted, were once yours and mine...

Now, I know we can revive it, all the love we left...

Every time I kiss, I feel your lips...

And every time I cry, I see your smile...

And every time I close my eyes, I realize that every time I hold your hand in mine, the
Sweetest thing my heart could ever find...

And I have never felt this way...

Since the day I gave your love away...

Save me, I've fallen from my destiny...

You and I were meant to be; I've thrown it all away...

Now you're gone, it's time for me to carry on...

But baby, I just can't go on without you by my side...

And all the things we ever wanted, were once yours and mine...

Now, I know we can revive it, all the love we left...

Every time I kiss, I feel your lips...

And every time I cry, I see your smile...

And every time I close my eyes, I realize that every time I hold your hand in mine, the sweetest thing my heart could ever find...

And I have never felt this way...

Since the day I gave your love away...

I must have closed my eyes during the song and gone into my own world where there was just Di and me. Opening my eyes I knew some people knew that I was singing to just one person, the one person that I love.

I looked across the crowded room until I spotted my heart looking at me, was she crying? She then turned around and walked out. Shit.

Quickly jumping off stage I ran after Di. Why was she crying?

Finally I had gotten through the crowd and went outside to look for Di. I spotted her sitting in her mum's old blue car. Opening the door I sat down. Di had her face turned toward her side of the window.

I touched her arm and felt it stiffen, but I didn't remove my hand.

"Hey," I said softly "You OK, Di?" I questioned, only to be met with silence.

I gently grabbed her chin with two fingers and turned her face toward me, she didn't resist. I looked at her face. There were tears flowing down; she was crying.

"What's wrong, Di?" I questioned again.

She cast her eyes down, "Nothing Mick, just having a hard week."

"Wanna talk about it."

"Next time Mick, not tonight 'K?"

I'll let it go for now "'K Mate. Wanna come to my house?"

She looked into my eyes and then I saw her warm blue eyes turn to my mouth. She bent forward and I felt the most wonderful feeling; I closed my eyes as I felt her soft warm lips touch mine in a gentle kiss.

Opening my eyes I looked up at her and she looked nervous, "What's wrong, Di?"

"I have a girlfriend," My heart sank at the mention of Tammy.

"Yeah."

"Then why the hell am I kissing my best friend? I'm cheating on her...shit..."

"Don't worry about it Di. It won't happen again, OK?"

She looked at me, "'K. Look Mick, I have to go. Let's just forget the kiss happened, OK?"

How many times can a heart break? Trying not to show my sadness I answered, "OK...Di..i...let's forget the kiss ever happened." I stepped out of the car. Why the fuck do I go through this shit?!

"Later." I called out, not getting a reply and not caring.

Two Days passed and still no sign of Di. I even went to her mum's to see if she was home. Nothing.

School holidays will be starting tomorrow and we're having a dance for the students in years ten to twelve. I haven't got a date, not that I want to take a guy with me. I'm just gonna go to the dance for the fun of watching people get what I won't...love.

Anyway I have been asked to sing again. They want me to sing a couple of songs, who am I to say no?

Part 5

Here I am at the dance; I didn't bother to put anything sexy on. I didn't feel like it. I just saw Di with her date, the red head. I don't even wanna sing. I don't feel the spark anymore or feel the fun of it, but I made a promise and I'm gonna keep it.

Like always I walk onto the stage but this time I don't announce what I am singing or even bother to say hi, I just start to sing:

There were nights when the wind was so cold

That my body froze in bed

If I just listened to it

Right outside the window

There were days when the sun was so cruel

That all the tears turned to dust

And I just knew my eyes were

Drying up forever (forever)

I finished crying in the instant that you left

And I can't remember where or when or how

And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

My eyes found Di's:

But when you touch me like this

And you hold me like that

I just have to admit

That it's all coming back to me

When I touch you like this

And I hold you like that

It's so hard to believe but

It's all coming back to me

It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now

There were moments of gold

And there were flashes of light

There were things I'd never do again

But then they'd always seemed right

There were nights of endless pleasure

It was more than any laws allow

Right now nobody is dancing. They all have their eyes locked on Di and I, with whom I haven't lost eye contact. Even her girlfriend has her eyes locked on me.

Baby Baby

If I kiss you like this

And if you whisper like that

It was lost long ago

But it's all coming back to me

If you want me like this

And if you need me like that

It was dead long ago

But it's all coming back to me

It's so hard to resist

And it's all coming back to me

I can barely recall

But it's all coming back to me now

I let the music stop before I walked out, feeling the tears burn behind my eyes. Only when I was safely locked in the locker room did let the tears fall as the sobs racked my body.

I was so into my own pain that I never heard the locker room door open, until I felt warms arms come around me like the night at my house. I didn't know what to do so I turned around and buried my face under Di's chin letting my tears flow harder.

Di let me cry, whispering in my ear, rocking me and telling me it would be alright, every things gonna be alright. But I know it's not gonna be alright, because I'm the one that's in love with my best friend.

I must have fallen asleep cause I woke up in my bed with Di sleeping next to me, her arms wrapped around me and her legs thrown over mine. Turning and looking at her face she looked so peaceful, so much younger, but I could still see the strain in her face, she was fighting a battle herself.

I now know we 'both' need to talk, because I can't live like this anymore.

Three days have gone by since the day Di held me in my sleep. She didn't even stay till morning; she left sometime early. I still haven't talked to her, but I've noticed, with a happy heart, that the red head is not with her anymore. Di doesn't seem too put out about it anyway...

Walking down the street I spot her sitting on a bench, thinking. Not wanting to scare her I quietly sat down beside her. After about 3 minutes she turned my way, warm blue eyes looking into my green ones.

"Hi."

"Hi Di. You OK, mate?"

"Yeah, just thinking."

"About?" I question softly.

"Oh just how great life has been with you by my side," she said still looking into my eyes.

"I love you, you're my best friend, you know that?"

"Yeah...I love you too." When I looked into her eyes I could still see sadness there, and the tears she was trying to hold back.

"Hey Di ...what is it? Come on, you can tell me."

"I'm...I...you...I..." after her failed attempt at talking, I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards my house.

"Come on, we need to talk and now."

"Um...OK."

Arriving at my place I quickly opened the door and walked in, dragging Di behind me. I sat on one of the chairs; Di sat as well.

"OK, talk."

"Um...well you know that I love you and you're my best friend right?"

I gave a nod, "Right."

"Well...um...you see, I kinda don't think of you as a best friend." I felt my heart sink and a tear come to my eyes. She looked my way and quickly finished what she was saying.

"No, no Mick...I mean...god, this is so hard," she sighed, rubbing the back of her neck. "What I'm saying is that I...I...I think I've fallen in love with you." She looked away as she softy whispered the last words, "I just wanted to tell you that's all. I know you don't like me that way, but you don't have to kick me out, I'll go." She got up to leave.

I know my mouth must have been touching the floor, joy took over my body, she loves me and as more than a friend! As she was getting up I quickly jumped off my seat, "No! I mean don't go...I'm so happy I could cry...I love you too. I've been in love with you for so long, please don't go." I know I must have been rambling, "Please let
stalk some more, plea..."

Before I could finish her lips met mine in a gentle exploration. It didn't take long for us to step closer, to melt against one another. I welcomed Di's arms as they encircled my waist. I pressed a little against Di's lips and they parted in invitation. I entered them delicately, touching the tongue that suddenly met with my own. We finally pulled apart for some much needed air.

"Hmm, that was..."

I finished off with the only word I could think of "Yummy."

I heard her chuckling. Turning my eyes to her I asked, "What's so funny?"

"You."

"Huh?"

"You. You look so cute with that flushed face, makes me wanna kiss you more. May I?"

Turning my head around, I answered, "Be my guest."

Di's head lowered to mine...

EPILOGUE

"Ohh Fuck" I heard my lover curse, hitting the wall next door.

"What's wrong babe?"

"Damn house. Why did ya have to buy one so old?"

"This was my great granny Mick's home. This house has been in the family and..."

"Yada, yada, yada...I've heard it all babe, blah, blah, blah!"

Ohh, that girl makes me so mad sometimes! Quickly picking up the diary of my great grandmother Mickey that I had found in the basement, I walked up to my tall dark lover.

"Hey Kelly, look what I found. It's my great grans dairy. I just read it. It's about how my two grans met, but it stops halfway. I guess Mick didn't need to write anymore, she was more than happy and finally with the other half of her soul. Just like you and me...soulmates."

Kelly moved closer to me, "Yeah Joe, we're soulmates, and I love you so much," I knew something else was coming.

"And?" I questioned.

"But Hun, baby, love of my life...Do we have to live here? The house is so old it's falling apart. Mick and Di lived here over 150 years ago; can't we just take the stuff and move? How about next door? We'll still be near the house."

"Oh but I wanted to stay here," I said, turning pleading eyes to my love.

Giving me a peck on my lips she said, "How about we move next door till we have the house fixed and ready, then we can move in, OK Hun?"

"Ooh...OK, I guess so."

"I love you babe, you know that don't you?" Kelly said warmly her beautiful blue eyes looking into my big green ones.

Giving my baby a hug and a soft kiss I answered, "I love you too. Come on, let's start cleaning up this mess..."

 THE END

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