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At First Sight by Colleen

General Disclaimer: This is an alternate uber story. The physical descriptions of the two lead characters may remind you of two others we all know and love, but all characters in the story are from my own imagination. This story is an original work and is copyrighted by the author. It cannot be sold or used for profit in any way.

Violence Disclaimer: This story depicts scenes of mild violence and/or their aftermath.

Hurt/Comfort Disclaimer: This story has some elements that may be best classified as such.

Love/Sex Disclaimer: This story depicts a loving relationship between two consenting, adult women and contains scenes of intimacy, but nothing explicit. If you are under 18 years of age or if this type of story is illegal in the state or country in which you live, please do not read it. If depictions of this nature disturb you, you may wish to read something other than this story.

No copy write infringement was intended in the use of the song “I Need You”

Thanks, to my beta readers Barbara and Jennis.

All positive comments are welcome at coleen30@webtv.net

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Chapter 22 (Conclusion)

Christmas Eve at Bridgett’s was a fun and emotional affair.  After dinner, the family gathered around the large, decorated evergreen in the family room.  Conner and Caitlin were designated elves and helped their mother pass out the presents.  Of course they loved their toys from Aunt Erin and Aunt Jamie and said so, with big hugs and kisses.

Erin had realized that her lover was just a big kid, as they shopped for the playthings, together.  Erin had to put a limit on the number of presents they bought for the kids.  Jamie was absolutely going crazy with generosity and Erin had feared just what was awaiting her on Christmas morning. The dark haired woman had thoroughly tested every toy and game, for safety she claimed.  But Erin listened as the evaluations were made with the unmistakable sound of laughter and fun.

Danielle received a grandmother’s ring from Bridgett, with stones of emerald and diamond.  From her other daughters, she got a beautiful watch pendant with the inscription, “For our wonderful mother.  Love Erin and Jamie.”

The partner’s bought Bridgett a Hummel figurine of two children playing dress up, to add to her prized collection and Brad got a new, state of the art, deep sea fishing pole and made him promise them a fish dinner, if he ever learned to use it.

Erin’s mother got her the most beautiful, Irish, hand woven sweater and matching tam.  Danielle had chosen one with shimmering threads of light green, that reminded her of her daughter’s beautiful eyes, but she didn’t mention that particular reason.  And for her newest daughter, she got two very rare books and a set of bookends made from real cowboy spurs, at Erin’s suggestion. 

Bridgett preceded her present to her sister with a short explanation.  “Erin, Brad and I wanted to get you some thing unique, something you couldn’t buy in any store.  I racked my brain for weeks and finally came up with this.”  She continued explaining as Erin opened the box.  “I was at your place one day and found this big, beautiful conch shell, down on the beach.  I had read somewhere about an artist who carves pictures into the shell.  So I found one and had him carve out a scene from your first movie.  Notice I say first, because I know you will write many more.”  She took Erin’s fingers and described the scene.  “This is Simeron.  I used tall, dark and mysterious over there as a model.” 

“And just how did you do that?” asked the tall one.

“I snuck a picture of you, that’s how,” she said, with an appropriately smug smile.

Jamie gave her a mock glare that caused the red head to laugh.

“Anyway, I am very proud of you sis.  Merry Christmas.”  The sisters hugged.

“Thank you Brig.  This so great and I love it more than anything else you could have gotten me.”

Jamie was the recipient of a full set of kick boxing lessons and a year’s membership to Antonio’s Paradise, one of the best health clubs in the state.  Brad got the brilliant idea for the gift, on the day he had helped Jamie move. She had mentioned, in passing, her interest in the sport and wanting to try an indoor climbing wall. 

Erin drifted off into a blissful daydream, picturing her partner’s buff body after a few weeks of lessons.  Not that she wasn’t thrilled with the present package, but more would only be even better.

“Snap out of it, Sis,” said Bridgett with a clicking of fingers.  “Do I want to know what was so interesting?”  she whispered, curiously.

Erin blushed.  “That would be a no.”

After all the gifts were opened, the children sat on the floor, playing with their new toys and the adults studied their presents in depth.  Danielle watched as her ring flashed with the reflection of the tree lights.  Jamie and Erin were snuggled, appropriately enough on the love seat, whispering in each other’s ears and smiling wickedly.

Once Brad was able to pull himself away from practice fishing in the corner, he set about cleaning up the room of the paper explosion that had taken place, while the rest of the family sipped their eggnog and chatted.  Several minutes later, the doorbell rang.  Bridgett returned to the family with a very puzzled expression.

“What is it, honey?” asked her husband, upon seeing the big box she was dragging behind her.

“A messenger delivered this with special instructions.”  She left the box near the tree and went to her sister’s side, handing her an envelope.  “Erin, you’re supposed to read this first, before we open the box, which is for the entire family.”

Everyone was curious at the unusual request and Jamie, was of course, cautious.  The blonde took out the letter and unfolded it.  Her fingers skimmed over the first few Braille sentences and her breath hitched.

Jamie leaned toward her.  “What does it say honey?”

Erin sighed.  “It’s from Dad,” she explained with a small smile, signifying that it was good news.

Danielle closed her eyes and said a thank you.  “Can we hear it sweetheart?  Or is it too personal?”

She nodded and began with emotion. 

“My dearest daughter, Erin.  It’s taken this stubborn old man, too many months to come to his senses, what little I have left at that.  There are no words to apologize for the things I said and the things I did, on that horrible day.  I am sorry, but I certainly don’t expect forgiveness.  My parent’s view of my child’s absolute perfection was shattered that day, as it should have been.  I have always placed unreasonable expectation’s on both of my daughter’s, but never took the time to really see who and what you were...and are.  That is the great shame of my life. 

 I will be totally honest with you and say that I still don’t quite approve of your lifestyle, but I know you don’t need my approval...just my acceptance.  And I am...trying.  I’m sorry.   I also want to apologize to the rest of family for my behavior and hope we can, one day, move past all this and once again become a united family.  I miss my grandchildren very much.  Tell them grandpa loves them and can’t wait to see them, if their parents approve.

 I also need to send an apology to your friend Jamie.  You all owe her a thank you for this flame of hope.”  Erin stopped and reached out for her lover.  “She must love all of you, very much, because I received a letter from her just before Thanksgiving, asking me to be with my family.  Sadly I was still acting stupid and didn’t respond. She also gave me quite a kick in the conscience, a few days later when she showed up at my office in Denver.” 

Jamie looked over to Bridgett and Danielle.  The tears that fell from their eyes couldn’t hide the looks of pride, thanks and love. She quickly looked back to her lover, who continued.

“The vile things that came out of my mouth, that day, make me sick to think about and striking you.... that alone signified my failure as a parent.  My embarrassment at my ignorance and belligerent behavior is keeping me from making this plea in person.  I am too ashamed to face all of you.  I only hope, that feeling will fade in time and you will, one day, accept my presence.  For now, know that I love you Erin, very much.  Please accept these presents and enjoy them.  I took careful consideration with each and every one.  My love to you all.  Merry Christmas, Dad.”

Inside the box, were special toys for the children; a train set for Conner and a dollhouse for Caitlin.

Danielle cried again when she opened her blue velvet box. Nestled in the soft material was a bead necklace of pale green and lavender jade.  She recognized it as similar to a piece she had seen when she and Tim were on their honeymoon in the Orient.  He told her he couldn’t afford to buy it at the time, but promised her that one-day it would hang around her neck.  It was the sentiment of that special trip together that brought the tears and more importantly, the fact that he had remembered. 

And speaking of honeymoons, Bridgett and Brad got tickets for a second honeymoon in the Bahamas with reservations at the Atlantis Paradise Island resort.

Erin was given another envelope with yet another letter that read, I’m afraid to say that I know nothing about your friend Jamie, but I only hope that she will enjoy this along with you.  I have a feeling, whatever makes you happy, makes her happy.  I do love you and I am glad you are content. He went on to explain the other contents of the envelope.

“What did you get Erin?” asked Bridgett.

“An all expense paid trip to Ireland, for two, including passage on Dad’s new executive jet.”

Jamie heard the gasps as she took in her partner’s happy smile.

Everyone enjoyed her joke and the festive and happy celebration continued on into the night.

Erin was quiet on the long drive home.  Jamie reached for the knob and turned down the festive carols playing on the radio.  “How do you feel about this new development with your father?”

Erin leaned her tired head, back against the seat and sighed.  “I’m glad that he’s taken the first step, especially for the rest of the family.  I think they’re happy about it.  And it felt good to know that he does love me.”

“But you still can’t forgive him.”

Erin hesitated. “I think I can, very soon.  But things will never be the same.  You heard what he said; he still can’t totally accept us.  And until he learns that you are the person I love and the person I am going to spend the rest of my life with, he will never really truly be my family.  I’m not mad at him, just disappointed.”  Erin needed a physical connection and laid her hand on Jamie’s knee.  “Why didn’t you tell me you contacted him?” 

 “I would have...if it had done any good.  When he didn’t respond to my letter, I knew it would only upset you more if you found out.  And then when I saw him in Denver… and that whole situation with Tyler made me forget.  I’m sorry.”

 “Don’t be sorry.  I love you for wanting everything in my life to be perfect.”

Jamie stood by the big glass doors, watching the ocean roll in and deposit her secret treasures in the sand.  It was still dark out, but the moon had long passed over and left the beach with an eerie pre-dawn glow.  Jamie thought about how much her life had changed in the last six months.  She now had someone that she loved more than life itself.  She lived in a nice, big house with an incredible view.  Her dream was well on its way to coming true. The ranch would be hers in just a few short months.  She sighed realizing that that also presented whole new set of problems.  She couldn’t make the two-hour drive everyday from the beach to the mountains.  A rancher had to live on their property.  Would Erin we willing to give up her house and move there with her?  Would she have to return to the beach on the weekends and just visit her lover?  Jamie reached into the pocket of her bathrobe and rubbed her thumb over the package hiding there, debating its purchase.  She closed her eyes and rested her head against the doorframe.  I can’t let my dream totally disrupt Erin’s life.  She loves it here and she has this house memorized.  It would probably be very hard for her to adjust to living somewhere else. The dark head shook, firmly. I can’t do that to her.  Her life is difficult enough.

Jamie moved away from the window, stepped into the kitchen and poured herself another cup of coffee.  It was only 7:15 and she wanted to let Erin sleep until eight.  She walked up the carpeted steps and down the hall.  She peeked in and watched her partner sleeping peacefully, curled around her pillow.  Jamie wrapped both hands around the warm cup and took a healthy sip as she walked on down the hall and into the den; their personal Christmas wonderland.  The lights on the tree sprang to life with a simple movement, as did the radio. 

Her attention was once again drawn to the big present in the corner.  It was oddly shaped, enough so that it couldn’t even be wrapped.  A huge box, with one end cut open, was placed down over, whatever it was, and a bright red bow was tied around it with a big tag stating her name and the phrase, Do Not Open Until Christmas.  It seemed that Erin went for big when it came to presents, as two more large boxes sat near the base of the tree. Her eyes drifted over to the pile of presents she had purchased and she smiled.  While most of them were relatively small, in size not necessarily price, she believed she did all right choosing her gifts for Erin.  And she had never had so much fun shopping in her life.

Jamie curled up in the corner of the soft couch and listened to the carols soothing melody and watched the twinkling, colorful lights. I haven’t been up this early on Christmas morning since I was nine.  And this time last year... I woke up alone, ate my simple bowl of cereal, alone and spent the day surfing the cable channels...alone.  Jamie laid her head back against the couch, closed her eyes and smiled.  But I’m not alone anymore.  And I never will be again.  Even if that means changing my plans a little.  I can own the ranch, but hire someone else to run it.  I can still go up there on weekends.  That will be fine.  Erin is my home now and I’ll do whatever it takes to make her comfortable and happy.

Erin’s dream faded and her smile widened.  She reached over and felt the cold side of the bed, signifying that her lover had been up for quite sometime.  A quick check of the clock told her it was 8:05.  Artemis jumped up and gave her human, her good mornings.  After a few good rubs and some praising words, she let the dog outside, shivering against the slight chill of the early morning air.  After ten minutes in the bathroom, she went in search of her missing partner.  Erin followed the sounds of music to the den.

“Jamie,” she called out, but no answer.  “Jamie, are you in here?” she asked louder.

The figure on the sofa stirred.  “Yeah, I’m on the couch.  I must have fallen back to sleep.” She yawned as the happy blonde joined her.

“Merry Christmas.” Erin leaned in and placed a long deep kiss on Jamie’s soft lips.

Jamie sucked in a deep breath. “Yeah, Merry Christmas to me.  That’s the only present I need.”

“Well you can have those presents all year long, but today you are getting those,” she said, pointing to the tree.  “And one or two other surprises.”

Jamie gave her another quick kiss.   “I’ll go get us some breakfast. We’ll eat in here and then start opening that large pile of presents.”

Artemis sat in the corner with her new collar around her neck, gnawing at her new chew toy.  Jamie handed Erin her first gift, then her second and a third.  When it was over, she had a designer gown, which Jamie said was to wear to the opening of Noah Factor, a very skimpy, aqua blue nightie and robe set, which Jamie said, was not to wear to the opening of Noah Factor.  A pair of pearl earrings also surprised her.  Jamie said they were to commemorate the month in which they met.  She mildly chided her partner for spending to much money, but Jamie assured her it was covered by a surprising Christmas bonus from her boss at the limo company and her last trip for the courier service.

Erin had numbered some of Jamie’s presents, wanting them to be opened in sequence.  Jamie reached for package number one.  Once unwrapped, she discovered that the box was taped shut and with a small grunt she forced it open.  She looked inside. 

Erin heard the rustling of  tissue paper. “I don’t remember you ever mentioning you had one.”

“No, I don’t.”  Jamie pulled the beautiful headwear out of the box and tried it on for size.  “It fits perfectly. Thank you.”

Erin smiled.  “Well, every rancher has to have a good cowboy hat.  Now open box number two.”  Erin bounced in her seat; almost more excited then Jamie.

Seeing the contents of this box, Jamie was now onto the numbering idea.  A shiny, new pair of brown, leather cowboy boots, size nine.

“It’s okay if you want to go out and scuff them up a little first,” said Erin.  “I wouldn’t want the horses snickering or calling you a dandy.”

Jamie threw aside the footwear and tackled the little blonde against the couch.  A small tickle fest ensued.  “I’ll give you a dandy.” Erin, breathlessly, begged her to stop and she exchanged the tickles for small tickling kisses.  “Thank you, they’re beautiful too,” Jamie said.

“Next! Go get number three,” ordered the author.

“Okay, but then you open some more.”

Erin nodded happily.  Then gave a small, devious little laugh.

Jamie let it pass without comment as she ripped off the purple and silver paper.  More rustling of tissue paper and she lifted the contents up and looked at a grinning Erin between the leather pieces.  “Honey, these are nice, but I’m going to be riding horses, not busting broncos,” she said of the brown leather chaps in her hands.

Erin slid off the couch onto her knees in front of the puzzled woman.  “I know, but I just got this vision a while back and I needed to feel you in leather. You don’t have to wear them to work in, if you don’t want to.”  She took the garment from Jamie, brought it to her face and inhaled.  “My vision involved you walking into our bedroom, wearing these… and nothing else.”

A sweat broke out on Jamie’s forehead and she was rendered mute at the erotic implications.  After several seconds, she cleared her throat.  “Well...a...maybe I’ll give you a preview later tonight.”

Erin just sat there grinning, wiggling her brows, teasing the dark haired woman. 

Jamie grabbed another present from under the tree and handed it to Erin.  “Why don’t you open that one, while I go visit the freezer.”

Erin laughed and grabbed the sleeve of Jamie’s robe.  “I’m sorry. I’ll be good.  Now come on back here.”  She ripped open the angel motif paper and ran her hands over the intricately carved wooden box.  She felt their initials enclosed inside a heart.

“I had this custom made,” explained Jamie.

Erin lifted the lid and a smile crossed her lips, as their song started to play.  She let it go on for several rounds, remembering their first meeting and their first night of love.  “It’s beautiful, thank you,” she said to the woman, sitting next to her. “You are such a romantic.”

“Only for you, sweetheart, only for you.”  Jamie picked up the small box, wrapped in red and placed it in delicate hands. “Here, this my favorite.”

Once it was opened, Erin picked up the contents by the delicate, but strong chain and continued to feel out its construction.  A smile slowly spread over her face, as Jamie explained it’s true meaning.

“I guess you know that it’s a locket. It’s gold and is covered in a Celtic design.  It a...has three parts.”  She unfolded the interlocking pieces.  “A place for your picture and one for mine, even though you know how much I hate having my picture taken.”

The blonde nodded.  “I know. I don’t understand it, because you’re beautiful, but I know.” 

“I love you Jamie.  And I can’t wait for the day when I can put a tiny picture in here.”  She reached over and kissed the mother of her future child.

“It’s expandable,” whispered Jamie, as she dried the tears of joy.  “Just in case… you know.”

The next few minutes were spent recovering from the intense emotion.  More coffee was consumed and another joke was made about the fringed leather garment now resting across the back of the couch.

Erin walked over to the mysterious present in the corner.  “You can open this one now,” she said, fingering the satiny bow.  “Actually this is number four.”

Erin traced the carved letters of her favorite name, as she had done a dozen times since it arrived. “The salesman said this was the softest saddle blanket that’s made anywhere.  It’s really comfortable for the horse.”

“I’m sure Teegan will enjoy it, even if it’s just on weekends.” The last part was almost whispered.

Erin looked puzzled.  “Well for right now, but I’m sure you’ll be out there every day, once you own it.  You did say you were very close right?”

“Yeah...yeah, I’ve almost got all the money for the down payment.  But I’ve been thinking...” She moved back to the couch. 

Erin didn’t like the hesitation in her voice.  “About?”

Jamie picked up a piece of discarded ribbon and began shredding it. “I think I’ll hire someone to actually handle the day to day operations and I’ll go out on weekends.” 

“That’s ridiculous, Jamie!”  Erin moved to her side with exasperation.  “You have to be there all the time.  That’s your dream, running a horse ranch, not just in name only.  What brought this on?”

More paper fell victim to Jamie’s frustrated fingers.  But she said nothing.  A hand grabbed hers.

“Jamie, talk to me.”

She shrugged. “I just think it’s best.”

“What kind of answer is that?  Best for who?”

“Me.”

“Jamie, don’t lie to me.  Maybe I’m being a little self centered, but this is because of me right?”

“No.  But I can’t commute four hours a day, that’s just to much.”

Erin shook her head, more confused than ever.  “Why would you need to commute?  Surely the house comes with the rest of the property.”

“Yes, but...you like it here, at the beach.”

Erin shook her head, now understanding.  She moved to sit across Jamie’s lap.  “I do like it here,” she said, then wrapped the long arms around her.  “But I love it here.”  A lengthy kiss followed.  “Jamie, I don’t think you realize how much I want this for you.”  She tried to find the words to explain. “I am absolutely happy at what I do, writing.  And I can do that anywhere, as long as I have my computer.  My dream is happening every day of my life.  And my life is complete with you.  I think I fulfill the same in your life.”

“You do,” came the whispered reply.

“Then owning this ranch, running this ranch and making it a success will make your dream come true and make you happy.  That’s what I want. I thought all my presents would have made that clear.  This is my dream now too and the only thing that could keep me from being by your side to live it out...is your not wanting me there.”

All of Jamie’s earlier fears were swept away by the honey voice and the sweet, heartfelt words.  Her heart fairly burst with love for the blonde haired woman and her decision was made.  She reached for the pocket of her robe.

The phone rang. A smile of anticipation flashed across Erin’s face.  “I’ll get it! Don’t move.”  The jubilant expression never left her through the short conversation.

Jamie was kind of happy for the interruption and quickly came up with a new plan of action.

“Okay,” said Erin, hanging up the phone.  “Grab present number five and come with me.”

Jamie did as she was told and followed her partner down the stairs to the front door. “I’m not quite sure what’s going on Erin, but can I open this now?”

“Absolutely.”

The contents inside brought a smile to her, because she understood the reason it was given.  The replica of the white Arabian mare looked back at her with shiny black eyes.  The toy horse came complete with removable saddle and brushable mane and tail. “Just like my childhood Christmas’”

Erin reached up, kissed her cheek and whispered,  “But I’m going to make that old wish come true.”  She opened the door.

Jamie glanced outside and did a huge double take.  There in the driveway, stood a living breathing, whinnying horse.

“Merry Christmas, baby,” said Erin as they walked down the stairs toward the beautiful animal.  She understood the emotion that was keeping Jamie silent.

The horse was an exact double for the toy horse she held in her hand; a white Arabian with a dark mane and tail.  Jamie rubbed the animal’s nose, feeling the warm breath on her face, certifying that it wasn’t an illusion.

“I know Teegan will always be your favorite,” explained Erin. “But you’re gonna need more than just her and like I said, I wanted to make that particular dream, come true.”

Jamie hugged the woman fiercely.  “You make all my dreams come true.”

They spent the next several minutes looking over the fine animal.  If Jamie hadn’t been in her pajamas and robe she said she would have taken off, bareback, down the beach.  The thought crossed her mind to run in and change, but Erin explained that the driver still had to take the horse up to the ranch. She had already made plans for Mr. Phillips to keep her there. Jamie bid the horse goodbye and loaded her into the trailer.  She gave the driver a hundred dollar tip for taking his holiday time to take care of her special present.

The rest of Christmas day was spent with a long walk on the beach, a turkey dinner, mutually prepared and a soothing soak in the hot tub.  During their walk, Erin had suggested that they keep the beach house for use on the weekends, to which Jamie wholeheartedly agreed.  While enjoying their soak, Jamie had a suggestion of her own; a new hot tub, for the ranch, was to be the first on their list of purchases.  Erin’s response was just as expected.

They made love by the fire, as the evening came to a close.  Of course that was after Jamie modeled her new leather accessory and Erin showed her how the west was really won.   They both considered it a perfect Christmas, each receiving everything their hearts desired.

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It was ten minutes till midnight and Jamie popped open the bottle of champagne.  She looked over to where Erin was curled up on the couch and smiled, never more sure of anything in her entire life.  They had gone out to dinner and then dancing with Bridgett and Brad, but Jamie wanted them to be at home, alone when the new year arrived.  She poured two tall glasses of the golden, sparkling liquid and walked over to join her love.

She handed one to Erin. “Here you go, sweetheart.”

Erin took a small sip. “Mmmm, that’s good. Thank you.” She was surprised when she felt Jamie take the glass from her and set it aside.

Jamie took both hands in hers and cleared her throat.  “Erin, you have made these past six months absolutely wonderful for me.  You brought me back to life, by loving me and letting me know how incredible it feels to love you.  We’re about to start a new year and I want this to be the first of at least fifty or sixty more.” 

Erin smiled and caressed Jamie’s face.  But she remained quiet, feeling that she had more to say.

“This is going to be the first full year of the rest of our lives together and I think it should begin with a promise.”  She cleared her throat again.  “Will you allow me to commit myself to being by your side and loving you forever?”  The announcer on the TV started counting down, 10, 9, 8.  Jamie opened the blue velvet box and brought Erin’s fingertips to feel the diamond ring. “Will you marry me, Erin Casey?”

“5, 4, 3, 2.”

“Yes! Yes, I will marry you!” 

Jamie slipped the ring onto it’s permanent home and Erin threw her arms around Jamie’s neck, as the crowds of people on the screen began singing and celebrating. 

But in a house on a California beach, with the moonlight streaming through the window, the happy couple now consumed in a kiss, knew that this acquaintance would never be forgotten and would always be on their minds, as they made a long, happy life together.

The End

Seeing You Again for the First Time is the next story in the lives of Erin and Jamie and includes tragedy and loss, a precious gift, a fateful trip to Ireland and the rebuilding of relationships and lives.

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