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At First Sight by Colleen

General Disclaimer: This is an alternate uber story. The physical descriptions of the two lead characters may remind you of two others we all know and love, but all characters in the story are from my own imagination. This story is an original work and is copyrighted by the author. It cannot be sold or used for profit in any way.

Violence Disclaimer: This story depicts scenes of mild violence and/or their aftermath.

Hurt/Comfort Disclaimer: This story has some elements that may be best classified as such.

Love/Sex Disclaimer: This story depicts a loving relationship between two consenting, adult women and contains scenes of intimacy, but nothing explicit. If you are under 18 years of age or if this type of story is illegal in the state or country in which you live, please do not read it. If depictions of this nature disturb you, you may wish to read something other than this story.

No copy write infringement was intended in the use of the song “I Need You”

Thanks, to my beta readers Barbara and Jennis.

All positive comments are welcome at coleen30@webtv.net

Cover by Colleen

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Chapter 1

The 5:58 AM sunrise peaked over the horizon with a glow that woke the Southern California day to a golden brilliance.  The morning view was like any one of a hundred others…beautifully unique in a dozen different ways.  But for the dreamer lying in the small bed, in the small apartment, in the large city of Los Angeles, it didn’t matter. She wouldn’t see it. 

The alarm sounded its annoying buzz and long, slims fingers reached over with amazing accuracy to shut it off.  Having already kicked off the covers sometime during the night, Jamie Sheridan slowly threw her feet over the side of the bed and tossed back her, slightly disheveled, mane of black hair.  She felt the sun on her back as it streamed through the window and heard the quiet hum of the air conditioner in the next room.  For Jamie, the last several hundred mornings played out exactly the same as the one before.  One strong cup of coffee, sugar no cream, a forty-five minute workout, a hot shower, another cup of coffee and a light breakfast later and she was ready for a day of work.  Holding down two jobs is hard enough for most people, but Jamie was driven by a selfish desire.  Selfish in a way that wouldn’t hurt anyone else, this time at least, just the fulfillment of a childhood dream, a dream that had disappeared into the dark for awhile, but was now back with a vengeance, thanks to some very meaningful words in a very special book.

Jamie put her dishes into the sink and took her large mug into the living room to finish her coffee.  She flipped on the television, but even with over 150 channels, the Saturday morning lineup provided very little that interested her.  Not much on television ever interested her though, no matter what day or time.  Although she had been known tune in to a program or two on the Discovery Channel or The Animal Planet Network. The reporter on CNN was just starting a story on the latest basketball game. Living in LA and having a team in the finals, it was hard to get away from.  She didn't care one way or the other, but after hearing that the Lakers lost to the Pacers, the night before, she hit the off button.  Carefully maneuvering around the coffee table, Jamie turned on the radio and swallowed the last of her coffee.  A song was nearing it’s end and she shuddered involuntarily at the last words, not out of repulsion or excitement, but with a sense of, what she could only describe as, familiarity.  Something about the song made her think of the dream she had the night before. The dream she felt she had experienced many times, but could never remember.  The words and the melody soon faded away, just like the dream upon waking.  Jamie shook off her melancholy and moved toward the next room. The telephone rang just as she was entering the kitchen. She took four, careful steps back and picked up the phone from the end table.  “Hello.” 

“Hi Jamie.  Are you ready?” the caller asked.

“Yeah Julie, I’ll be out front in fifteen.”

Julie Maxwell was one of Jamie’s co-workers at GB Scrolls Publishing.  The thirty something, single mother had to drive right past Jamie’s on her way to the babysitters and she had been giving Jamie a ride to work for the last few months.  Julie was a friend, but they were not close by any means, only speaking in the car and in passing at work.

GB Scrolls was a big company and the department Jamie worked in had at least twenty people.  But Jamie worked directly with only four others. Besides Julie, there was Mark Wills. He was a nice young man just out of college and being his first job he tended to over compensate at everything he did, much to the aggravation of the boss.  Jamie thought the over achiever was kind of sweet though. As for the boss, no one liked her.  To say she was a cold bitch was an insult to the insult. Luckily, she spent at least six hours a day in her cushy office, only calling on the phone to bark out orders.  Rounding out the quintet was Bridgett Nelson.  The red head had only been at the company for six months, having decided to return to part time work after the birth of her last child, three years earlier.  She was very pleasant and everyone liked her, even if she was a bit assertive.  Of all the people Jamie knew, Bridgett was the one she spent the most time with, often having lunch together at a local café.

Bridgett often talked about her near perfect life with her husband and two children and a big house in the Hollywood hills.  She was never bragging, just describing facts about her life.  But Jamie couldn’t relate to Bridgett’s life at all.  She always listened with interest and never begrudged her friend her happiness.  But there was a small part of Jamie that envied what Bridgett had.  Not the money or the house, but the family…something she knew she’d never have.  A tragic and bloody past had proved to Jamie that she hadn’t learned the art of relating to people on a personal level. As much as she wanted to, she knew she could never escape that inadequacy and learn to love.

Jamie stepped out of the elevator and slowly walked through the small lobby of her building.  The cleaning service must have been in last night, Jamie thought to herself when she smelled the freshly shampooed carpet.  I’m certainly glad they put down the rug over the old tile, she thought as she reached for the door handle.  My butt probably would have been introduced to the floor half a dozen times in the last few weeks.  That embarrassing, but hilarious mental picture brought a small smile to her face, as she walked outside and across the small cement landing.  She paused at the top of the stairs. Taking her cane in her left hand and holding onto the railing with her right, Jamie, cautiously, took one step at a time. 

The sound of an electric hedge trimmer came around the side of the building. Mr. Davis had started his Saturday landscaping.  The man and his wife had moved into the building after an early retirement and he had volunteered to take care of the grounds, since gardening had always been a passionate hobby of his.  Every week he saw to it that all the women in the building had fresh flowers for their dinner table.  Jamie loved the fragrance that greeted her as she sat down to her evening meal, that more often then not, consisted of take out from the array of international restaurants within a two-mile radius.

“Careful of that last step, Jamie,” the elderly man warned, as he pulled a rag from his pocket and wiped his neck.  “There’s a crack in it and it’s loose.  Someone’s supposed to come and fix it this afternoon.”

She eased herself over it, thanking him for the warning.  The grayed haired gentleman took her arm and helped her to the sidewalk.

“How’s your wife?” asked Jamie, as she settled herself onto the wooden bench.

“She went to visit her sister for the weekend,” he answered with just a hint of sadness.

Jamie flashed him a teasing smile.  “You mean she took the chance of leaving you alone with a single woman like me, living just down the hall.”

He lowered his face in embarrassment at the flattery.  “Please Jamie, I won’t be able to get this old head through the door,” he chuckled.  “I don’t know why a lovely young lady like you doesn’t have ’em lined up and waiting.”

That was one conversation she didn’t want to get into, so she sent him on a detour.  “Mr. Davis I need a special flower arrangement next weekend. Do you think…?”

“I know just the thing,” he said, excitedly. “My roses out back will be in full bloom by then.  I’ll make you a great bouquet.” She smiled at the kind man. “I’d better get back to work,” he said.  “I hear my hedges calling me.  You have a good day Jamie and don’t work to hard.”

“Look who’s talking. Don’t you stay out in this sun too long.”

“I won’t.” He patted her hand and headed back to his gardening.  “You know I was thinking,” he said, turning back to her. “I should fix that loose carpet inside your door.  Emma told me about it the other day.  I certainly don’t want you to trip over it.”

The concern in his voice really touched Jamie’s heart.  It was the first time, in a long time that someone cared about her for who she was and not what she could give them.  “Mr. Davis, I really appreciate it, but everything’s okay. I get around just fine.  I’ll have maintenance take care of it.  You don’t need to be working that hard.”

“All right, but if there’s anything you need, you promise to call me.  And forgive an old man for being persistent, it’s just that you remind me of my granddaughter and I miss her.”

Jamie smiled again at the gentlemen and suddenly realized that he and several others in the building, felt like the grandparents she never had.  “I understand Mr. Davis and I will, I promise.”  When she heard the trimmer start up again, she shook her head and gave a sigh coupled with a fond grin.  Jamie had purposely moved into a building where two thirds of the occupants were senior citizens.  It was quiet and calming after the previous dozen or so hideous years of her life.  Another definite plus was the delicious, home cooked meals they brought her from time to time. 

Jamie lifted her face to the sky and let the mid-morning sun warm the tan that was already there.  She tried to shut off all her thoughts and problems for the few minutes she had before her ride arrived.  A myriad of neighborhood regulars passed by on the sidewalk in front of her.  A rollerblader, with a lose wheel, zoomed by. A jogger stepped on a twig, which snapped loudly, but he was unfazed by it and ran on.  Then came the lady down the street, walking her three dogs, one of whom stopped to sniff at Jamie’s feet. Thank goodness that’s all he did.  But a yank on his harness soon had him back in line with his two canine companions.  The California life bustled all around her, but Jamie always felt just outside of everything, always on the edge of having the life she now wanted.  The life that just a few short years before, she had tried so hard to throw away. A car horn soon roused Jamie from her thoughts.

“Is everything okay?” asked the woman, leaning out the car window.

“Yeah Julie. I was just…”

“Daydreaming?”

 Jamie considered for a moment. Is that what I was doing? “Yeah, I guess so.”

When two o’clock rolled around, Julie was ready to jump out the door.  She only worked on a Saturday morning, because the boss had asked.  Jamie, on the other hand, would have kept right on working; there was nothing to occupy the rest of her day.  But, unless she wanted to take the bus home, not a pleasurable experience, or spend a good portion of the days pay on a taxi, she had to leave then.

After picking up her three-year-old from the babysitter, Julie pulled up in front of Jamie’s building. 

“I’ll see you Monday morning Julie, thanks,” Jamie said as she eased her way out of the little car.

“Oh, I almost forgot to tell you,” said Julie. “I’m not going to work on Wednesday, Jared has a doctors appointment.  Sorry.”

“That’s okay, I can find a way.” Jamie waved toward the back seat.  “By Jared. Bye Julie.”  Jamie took her cane in hand and headed to the stairs, mindful of the cracked first step, which still hadn’t been fixed.   Once inside, she heard the elevator open.  “Hold that would you.”  The smell of perfume assaulted her nose before she was half way across the lobby.  “How are you today, Mrs. Howard?” she asked as she stepped onto the elevator.

The plump, white haired woman set down her shopping bag and shifted the squirming, brown terrier to her other arm.  “I’m just fine dear and you?”

Jamie bobbed her head in kind a yes, kind of a no way. “Not to bad.”

“I’m glad I ran into you Jamie,” said the elderly woman.  “My grandson is coming to see me next week.”

Jamie’s jaw tensed, knowing what was coming next.

“It’s been almost two years since I’ve seen my little Jimmie.  I know he hates it when I call him that, but he’ll always be little to me.”

Jamie just stood there smiling and listening.

By the time they reached the sixth floor, Mrs. Howard had slyly tried to fix Jamie up with her grandson, adding the fact that Jimmie was six years younger then Jamie, wouldn’t bother him at all.

The double doors slid open and they stepped out into the hall. Jamie didn’t want to insult her, so she began tactfully.  “You know Mrs. Howard, I really don’t feel up to dating right now.  I’m sure he’s really nice, I mean he is your grandson, but now is just not a good time.”

The woman smiled. “Of course dear, I understand.  But I really do hate to see you so lonely.”

Jamie removed the wrinkled hand from her cheek and squeezed it affectionately.  “I’ll be fine, but thank you for caring.”

“Always my dear, always.” 

Mrs. Howard shuffled down the corridor and Jamie heard the small dog yipe once and his owner promise him two doggie treats for being so good.  She felt sorry for the woman who lived alone, her husband having passed on years earlier. That’ll probably be me someday, Jamie thought sadly. But I won’t even have the memories of a fulfilled life to keep me company and I doubt even a dog would want to be around me that much.

After fishing her keys out of the pocket of her jeans, Jamie went into her lonely apartment.  The sound of the closing door and her heavy sigh were the only noise in the small room.  But that was soon remedied when she flipped on the radio.  One luxury Jamie had indulged in was an extensive sound system.  The high tech equipment filled the room with an incredible resonance, although she kept it low enough, as not to disturb the building’s other occupants. There were extensions in the bedroom and the smaller second bedroom, which now served as her workout room.  Her musical tastes ran the range from classical to contemporary with stray 70’s and 80’s hits and movie soundtracks thrown in.  The 70’s songs always reminded her of her early childhood, the good part anyway. 

She was born in a small city in Missouri, where her father worked in a factory. Her mother practiced her craft as a seamstress in a local tailor shop. She loved her parents very much and she felt loved, at least most of the time. They provided Jamie with all the necessities of life and now and then, some small extras that they could afford on their modest income. As many little girls do, she would sometimes daydream about what her life would be like when she grew up. One thing she knew for certain, she would have a horse of her very own.  That was her one great wish for five of her first nine birthdays and Christmas’s. Her parents could never make that wish come true, but her visions always included the most beautiful and loyal horse known to man. 

Another of Jamie’s wishes was that her twin sister would have lived. She always wondered what kind of fun they could have had, what kind of trouble they could have gotten into.  Jamie used to talk to her late at night, asking for her help to solve the typical childhood problems and later on, the not so easy ones.  She may not have heard her sister’s voice, but still there were times when she could have sworn that she was answered.

Jamie raided the refrigerator, but all she came up with was a cold root beer.  Just as she hit the couch, the phone rang.  “Hello.”

“Hey kid what’s up?”

“Hi Bridgett.  Nothing’s up, I just got home and…”

“And you’re bored,” said Bridgett, before Jamie could finish the sentence.

“I wouldn’t say I’m bored.”

“Okay, so you’re tiresome, listless, suffering from the doldrums.”

Jamie chuckled.  “What did you do, swallow a thesaurus?”

“I’m just well read,” retorted the caller.  “Let me guess what you’re going to do tonight.  It is your night off, right?”

“Yes,” Jamie answered.  There was a pause from Bridgett.  “Come on smarty, what do you think?”

“Well you’re probably going to order a pizza and spend the rest of the night reading.”

Silence filled both ends of the line for several seconds, until Jamie heard a laugh.

“So did I hit the nail on the head, pick the winning number, answer the…”

“Okay, okay so what if that’s what I’m gonna do.  I like pizza and I like to read.”

“That’s fine,” said Bridgett, “but as you say, that’s all you do, work and stay home.  But tonight we are going to change that,”

“Oh?”

“Damn right.  I’m having a backyard barbecue this afternoon and you’re coming over.”

Jamie shook her head.  “Bridgett you know…”

“I know, you can’t thank me enough for the invitation.  I’ll be by to pick you up in 45 minutes.  Bye”

Jamie opened her mouth to say something, but before she could get the first word out, she heard a click on the other end.

As Bridgett’s car traveled back to her home in the hills, the two way conversation inside meandered from work to tales of traffic mishaps to Bridgett’s family, the latter of which was about to play a big part in Jamie's life.

“I hope you’re hungry,” said Bridgett, as she turned a corner, “...because Brad bought enough food for the Dallas Cowboys. At least that’s the way he put it. In case I’ve never mentioned it before, Brad relates everything in sports terms.”

Jamie laughed. “So, I suppose you’ll be having pigskins in a blanket, home plate apple pie.”

Bridgett laughed. “Oh you and Brad are going to get along great. Just try and remember he’s taken.”

Jamie raised a dark brow. “Trust me, you have nothing to worry about. Just how many people are going to be at your party anyway?”

“Don’t worry, I know you don’t like crowds,” said the red head. “There will only be eight others besides my family.  Which reminds me, there’s someone I’m anxious for you to meet.”

A sigh was heard from the passenger side of the fast moving vehicle. “Please don’t tell me you’re trying to fix me up with a friend of your husbands, or a cousin…”

The driver shook her head adamantly. “No, no I don’t play matchmaker, that’s much to dangerous.  I’ve lost more then one friend that way.”

“That’s good to hear, because you are one of the few friends I’ve got.”

“Actually I’m hoping that will change,” Bridgett mused, happily.  “The person I want you to meet is my sister.  She lives alone and she also doesn’t have many friends and I’m really busy and…anyway I think you’ll really like her. Like you, she loves to read and she loves movies. If you ever need a good trivia partner she’s the one to have.”

Jamie listened to the love and admiration in Bridgett’s words. “It sounds like you two are really close.” A slight touch of envy lingered in her voice.

“Yeah, we only had each other growing up, besides our parents I mean. I’m very proud of my little sister. I got into more then a few fights when other kids bothered her and I still would today.” Bridgett finished just as she pulled into the long drive behind three other cars.  “Looks like everyone’s here. Let’s go.”

Jamie carefully slid her six-foot frame out of the mini van and followed closely behind the hostess, over the stone walkway that led around the side of the huge, two-story house.  A part of Jamie still wished she were back in her apartment with a good book and solitude. Socializing was low on her list of skills. “Bridgett, I don’t want to take you away from your party, but I really can’t stay long.”

The hostess spun around. “Hey you just got here and you want to leave already?”

“No. I just wanted you to know, since you insisted, practically demanded I come.”

“Well, if you would just allow yourself to, I know you would have a good time.  But whenever your ready just say the word and I'll take you back home.”

Jamie heard the unmistakable sounds of children playing, as they rounded the corner of the house into the party area.  Two long tables, covered with red checked tablecloths laden with food and two barbecue grills bordered the far side of the brick patio. Several round, white tables, small enough for intimate conversations, sat close to the house.  Two larger ones rested farther away from the double glass doors that led into the busy kitchen.  A tall, thin man in blue shorts, white T-shirt and a ‘Kiss the Cook’ apron stood guard over the glowing grills, searing the main course to perfection. He waved briefly at his wife and then returned his attention to cooking. Most of the other adults were inside the house, catching the last few minutes of the baseball game. Four youngsters, ranging in age from three to ten, were running and tumbling over a patch of perfect green lawn and on their heels leapt a big golden dog.

“Hey you kids quiet down a little will ya,” warned Bridgett. 

Five heads popped up over the hedge. “Sorry Mom,” said a young, sandy haired boy.

Bridgett shook her head. “Do you remember making that much noise when you were a kid?”

Jamie’s face clouded over with a mixture of emotions. “No, not when I was a kid.”

The hostess didn’t want to overwhelm her guest with a dozen introductions, but there was one she just had to make. She scanned the faces looking for her target.  “Come on Jamie,” Bridgett said, taking her by the arm, leading her to one of the smaller tables nestled in the corner of the yard. As they got closer, the woman sitting there suddenly captured Jamie’s wandering attention.

“Excuse me for a minute,” said Bridgett. “I’ll be right back.”  She ran to break up a scuffle between her son and his cousin.

Jamie stood rooted to the spot.  She knew her staring was rude, but the woman didn’t seem to notice.  But Jamie sure noticed her. She’s beautiful.  She then amended her thought. She’s the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. She looked away and shook her head. You can’t even go there, so just stop it now, Jamie told herself. Anxiousness washed over like she hadn’t felt in a long time.  A time, which she could now say, was the worst in her life.  But in the next instance it felt like her spirit was being illuminated from the inside.  She jumped when Bridgett touched her arm.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.”

The dark head shook.  “No, its okay, I was just thinking.”

“Not about leaving I hope.”

“No,” Jamie said, with a small smile. “Actually, I just realized that it might be a very interesting night.”

The hostess led her over to the table that had garnered Jamie’s attention, seconds earlier. “Erin.” The blonde turned in their direction. “Jamie, I’d like you to meet my sister, Erin Casey. Erin, this is my friend, Jamie Sheridan.”

The seated woman held out her hand, which Jamie eagerly took.  “It’s nice to meet you Jamie.  Bridgett told me all about you.”

“I can’t imagine that was a long description,” the tall woman chuckled.

Bridgett playfully slapped her arm. “Would you stop being so hard on yourself.  Now sit down and talk my sister. She already ate, but she’ll keep you company. I’ll get you something to eat.”

Bridgett scurried away before Jamie could say anything. She turned to the other woman. “Is your sister always so…?”

“Bossy.”

“Well, I was going to be polite, but yes.” Jamie took the chair closest to her new acquaintance.

 “Brig sometimes makes it impossible to be polite. I love my sister and she always…well almost always, means well, but she is pushy.  But you should know, you work with her.”

“Next to our boss she’s a kitten, so I guess I didn’t realize it.  You know we’ve only had lunch a few times, so I was a little surprised when she invited me here.”

“Like I said, she has a good heart and she thinks you’re lonely,” Erin added, timidly.

“I’m more like a lost cause,” whispered the dark haired woman. 

Erin’s acute hearing caught the words and let the comment float around in her brain as she got to know the Jamie better.  The blonde thought herself to be a very good judge of character and she knew that this woman needed something.  She may not admit she’s lonely, but she knows she’s alone.  And everyone needs someone to love.  Love? Where did that come from?

“Here you go, ”said Bridgett, as she returned with nourishment for her guest.

Jamie’s eyes widened at the sight of the plate, piled high with goodies.  “I can’t eat all of this.”

“Oh sure you can,” Bridgett said. “You’re always telling me you only eat take out and this is good food, if I do say so myself.  Look at it as if you’re storing up for a few days." She turned to the giggling blonde. “ Can I get you some more iced tea, Sis?”

“Yeah, thanks.”

Erin smiled and Jamie almost dropped the fork that was half way to her mouth. That smile seemed to light up the whole world, or maybe just her world.

“My sister seems to think that everyone has my appetite,” laughed the younger woman.

“Yeah, but did you eat this much?” Jamie asked, after swallowing the mouth full of salad.

“I had enough to fill up for a week.  I’m a pretty good cook, but I don’t do it to much, just for me.”

“Well that beats me, I can’t cook at all,” said Jamie, as she continued to sift through the piles of food stacked on the foam plate in front of her. Her thoughts floated back to a time long ago.

“Sweetheart this is the best meal you’ve ever made,” said Michael Sheridan, as he scooped another helping of potato salad onto his plate.

His wife reached down and kissed his cheek, as she passed by.  “You say that about every meal I cook.  But thank you.”  

“And our beautiful little girl here, is going to be just like you, when she’s grows up. Aren’t you Jamie?” asked, the dark haired man.

The seven-year-old just nodded, because her mouth was full of her last bite of hot dog.

Amy Sheridan sat down on the wooden bench next to her daughter.  “Do you want something else to eat honey?” 

The dark head shook.  “No Mommy, I’m full.”

Amy smiled. “Well, that’s to bad,” she said teasingly.  “I’ve got strawberry shortcake for desert, but if you don’t have any room...”

Jamie’s blue eyes widened and the little wheels in her brain spun around.  She scooted off the bench and ran across the grass, for about twenty feet, and then she ran back and stopped right in front of her mother.  “I have room now, Mommy.”

Her parents laughed.

Jamie remembered later on in the day, flying a kite with her father.  His strong arms held her up, while she held onto the string.  They ran across the field as the red diamond dipped and swooped, high in the sky.  Her mother sat by smiling, watching the antics of her family.  The wind soon began to die down and Michael reeled in the kite, as Jamie ran over to her mother.

“Did you see, Mommy? Did you see how high I made it go?” she asked excitedly, as she was lifted onto her mother’s lap.

“I sure did honey.  You are the best kite flyer ever.”

They were soon joined by, a slightly out of breath, Michael.  “Well pumpkin, I think we should be heading home.”

A heavy frown fell over the girl’s face. 

“Don’t worry honey,” said her mother, with a kiss to the top of her head.  “We’ll come back again. I promise.”

Jamie hopped down off her mother’s lap and turned to face both of her parents.  “Can we do one more thing?” she asked, emphasizing her point by holding up one small finger.

The Sheridan’s had a hard time refusing their daughter anything.  “What do you want to do sweetheart?” asked Amy.

Little Jamie took that finger and pointed to her left, over the hill.  Just the top of the colorful, rotating object could be seen, but the cheerful calliope music was letting its notes be heard, loud and clear. 

They should have known.  The carousel was their daughter’s favorite.

“Let’s go,” said Michael.

Standing in between her parents, holding onto their hands, Jamie looked up at them with twinkling blue eyes and a semi-toothless grin.  Her parents looked at her, then at each other.

What Jamie didn’t know was what they were thinking.  They knew how wonderful it would have been to have two just like her, but after losing Jordan, they vowed to each other to cherish every moment of Jamie’s life and give her all the love in the world. 

Hand in hand, the happy family ran over the hill, where all three mounted majestic steeds and rode side by side.  Jamie never wanted the day to end.

Chapter 2

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